Our lectures

This evening, we went to lecture...


And it ended up like this...(to show that i am a good student, got bring dog tag!)



U see them like so rajin, 1 concentrating, 1 jotting down notes?


The truth behind it...



15 minutes later...


In the end, when the lecture decided to give us a break, because everyone already start to doze off...we decided to sneak out, and say byebye.

We then went to e-cen to catch others we didn't at all attend the lectures..haha

Glowing in the DArk

Was talking about sex and condom, kisses with my mates few days ago.

I still find oral sex unacceptable larr...don't ask me why. I think its er xin okay? Both my pals were telling me its okay...Its fair that female do it to male and male do to female. But i just tak boleh tak boleh tak boleh laa...I don't expect my hubby to do it to me also lorr~~ In fact, thinking of somebody doing THAT to me, already makes me feel eerrie...


Kises, i wondered can somebody kiss somebody(a stranger) like that when they are drunk. Its been many many times, guys asked for kisses from people when they are drunk or high? A few guys approached me before, but so far I still think its ridiculous laarr...Am I abnbormal? Again, my pals told me, its alright worr...

Maybe I should try drink really really really alot, and see if I can do it eh?

And the funniest...glowing in the dark condom. I tot it wasn't safe? they say safe?

OKay, she says, its funny to wear glowing in the dark C, with the lights off. What will you see? Imagine~

I can see you, I can't see you, I can see you, I can't see you again...

If you donno what I mean, i donno how to explain.

Anyway, i never thought of that until she told me. Pretty funny eh?

I like this picture alot! She is sweet, agree?


We went to the mamak at genting. Super hard to find but the place is kinda special becoz it opens till midnight and a place where you can buy lower cost food. Its a nice place to hang around...dind't take alot of pictures coz it was way too cold and i didn't bring any jacket.(hehee)

We were so sleepy by 2sth in the morning. Then, walk around and decided to head home. I drive vivien's car back because that pig is just too lazy and scared and tired. ERmmm....due to the reason that i am quite tired also( yeahhh tired) so...I kinda sped A LITTLE. And mana tahu~~ the police caught me red handed when i intend to overtook a car, only to find that in front got road block. DAMN!

I was so angry...


Police : tahu apa sal tak?

me : pandu laju lorr

police : sekarang macam mana? Gambar sudah kena tangkap...( I SERIOSULY don think any picture were TAKEN!!!!!)

me : Tak tahu laa...sorry laa, kita student...bagi satu chance, boleh?

police : saya nak bagi 1 chacne, tapi gambar sudah tangkap macam mana? Sudah ada

evidence. Tak bleh delete. Sekarang macam ini, saya pun nak tolong kamu student. Tapi saya tak nak keluar duit sendiri. Saya pun kena bagi duit kat itu orang, suruh dia delete itu gambar.

me: berapa?

police : rm50

me : tak ada laa...u buka saman.
(vivien was shocked to hell!)

police : kalau I buka saman, mungkin you kena pergi mahkamah, bayar rm300.

me : tak apa, u buka saman.
(vivien was so scared until, when the police took out the pen and saman paper(dono real or not) she said...)

vivien : murah sikit laa...kita tak ada begitu banyak laa...baru turun dari genting. Sudah tak ada wang...

police : habis you ada berapa?
I took out my wallet...all rm 50 notes with a few ringgit..took out that few ringgit~~

me : eh, i left like this(show my money) you all got or not?

vivien : take out rm30..(show the police( kita ada macam ini aje)

police : bolehlah...ambil itu merah saje..
(and so...he took all the red colour notes..)

me : takkan tak tinggal sikit untuk kite? habis macam mana kita nak balik nanti? tak payah bayar tol ke?
(then he gave back rm10)


STUPID MALAYSIAN POLICE!

later, right after we pass the police, vivien remembered that her maid's bf is a police. He can settle any saman as long as the saman hand to him immediately.

StupiD VIVIEN. sO ANGRY. Seriously if wasn't that im driving vivien's car, i would have ignore that farking police. I don think got photo in the 1st place. AND rasuah a police is not my wind laaarrr~~ GRRR

Sleepy days..

Sorry for lack of updates. Busy and tired. I am officially like a zombie now. FAT ZOMBIE! Its been like 3 weeks of not enough sleep.

I know I am fat already, my fellow lovely mates kept asking me to eat somemore. I donno why they just like to make people miserable...and so, they decided to call me for supper whenever possible having to know that i'll surely be there if i have no other activty. (HELL, this means i am going to be fatter @@)

Here are few pictures..

THe farewell BBQ party at Shirley's place. The chicken wings were as hard as rock~

CaM wHOrING~


Couples~


Triples (hehehe okay, very lame...)


and....THE GIRLS!!


Everyone. teehee



A hyper boring night at mamak!

I was suppose to go somewhere that night, but it ended up back fired thanks to someone (:p) So, i spent my night looking at my housemate and my housemate stare back at me. Gossiping in msn right behind of the SOMEBODY so that we WILL NOT MAKE NOISE. Later then, we decided we cannot take the boringness anymore, and so, we call up the guys, who had just finished dota to yumcha. Carmen, our facilitator cum senior of the telematch, who lived just upstair of my house came too. (phew)

boring~


Sleepy~


Tired~

Amazingly, we sit at the mamak, and talked until about 3-4 sth i suppose.

Be a survivor!

Rules number 1:
Adapt to the environment. Don't expect to be adapted. ( Am i using the correct way to express? Find people, don't expect to be found....correct rite?)

Anyway...to be a great survivor..you have to change with the environment flows. That makes me goes well with people I want to go well with. Unless I don give a damn about that particular person, whether he/she likes me or not, i don't care~ I adapt to them and im proud that i goes well with most of the people i know. No one is perfect okay?

For EXAMPLE:
Living in the house of 6, if the other 5 sleep at 1am ( FOR EXAMPLE ), you don't expect everyone to keep quiet after 9pm, because you are sleeping at 9! Seriously, this is "TERLALU lebih lebih" rite?

Stop making everyone dislike you. We don't want to discriminate people. But everyone should be respected with their difference. And since the majority wins, who should adapt to who?

Well, as a higher class housemates we are ( the other 5), we had been trying our best these few days, to talk as softly, politely, nicely, sweetly, ACT as how girls should talk in the living room, which is erm....(looking at the distance)...7metres away from HER room. It happens that today, a senior of ours came to our house(our facilitator for telematch), sitting here and talked, and THAT GIRL asked her roomate to tell us to lower our voice.

@@

ITs f@rking irritating LORR~~~~!!!

1st 1st, she don't give us a little bit of face mer?? Afterall, we will face each other everyday LERRR(tak mau pun tak boleh @@). A guest is here...and she asked us to lower our voice? I swear we wasn't like shouting, we were only (only!) talking in a normal voice.... and she not only donno how to give face to us, she don give face to the guest also...making us feeling kinda embarass(spell wrong, who cares, AM ANGRY)

OPpsssSSs...this is 1 of my example only rite?

CHILL!!

In the test, or exam, giving examples will add marks. It doens't mean that that example is REAL.... or unreal.

I AM NOT POINTING MY FINGERS ON ANYBODY UNLESS YOU THINK YOU ARE THAT PERSON

HIak hiak HIAK (evil laugh!)

I am not writing on anybody. SERIOUSLY, am NOT. But if you think I am writing about you, your friend or somebody, change then! Disgrace me, and verify me wrong, I don't mind. Prove to me you are elegant, prove to me you are polite, prove to me you are cultured, show me you are dignified with fine qualities.

(GOod morning everybody...Im off to sleep..)

Mixed up everything together

New YEar Eve at The Curve, very very evry nice 10 minutes fireworks!



1st day at Utar.



Today, we went to a mamak, together with the new group of friends we met during the telematch. Being the champion, we were lucky enough, because 12 turn up out of 13. And 4 new friends they bring over...we exchange mail and number.


IT was great.





WHen our group of friends have nothing better to do, we mix up all the leftover food, and challenge each other to eat. The rules is like that, girl eat 1 scoop, guys eat 2 scopes. Then, the 2nd round we will add up more "er xin" stuff, until one vomit. We once did this at Sunway piramid buffet dinner. Until somebody vomit, still we gave up.

I ate 2 scoops of those. Well, is mix of 3 types of tosai kuah, cofee, ice lemon tea, limau kasturi, fried rice, mee siam, toufu,, cucumber, cili souce, fried chicken, cili padis...and i cant remember...

AND I SWEAR!!! IT tasted SUCKS. Its sour!! LIke ()#*$&^@ spoil food..

aNYWAY, we didn't play further because last time, we manage to made everyone tried the "food". This time, because they are all still new to us, we don't want to scared people away...hehehe


The group photo we took after winning the telematch!

Been very very busy in UTar. Utar sg long sucks. Mic spoil, lecture hall sucks with pillars everyway, blocking our vision...and projecter so damn far and small. I can't hear the lecturer, I can't see the board. TOday was the 1st day and the lecurer were all so far, SUCKS!

UTAR management system is like shit. I went to pass up a form today. We went there, crowded long queue, and the fellow say, need photostate offer letter.Never mind We photostated downstaris...lift were spoiled so we took stairs. 2nd time we went, queue again, when reach us he says, need to photostate bill also. tHE 3rd time, we just throw to that guy without letting him check. God bless!

Then, went to 3rd floor, climb all the way, to take picture for ID. Today is the 1st day of Uni reopening, and they are telling us that today IS the last day. With like 60 people queueing....And supposingly, in the notice board they write close at 8pm, rest at 1pm. 2 o clock, the counter is close. We went to lecture. Sneak out at 3.30pm. Queue reaches 70 ppl, we waited for exactly 2hours! DAMN IT. And worse thing is...they let all the guys to take picture 1st! DAMN IRRITATING.

So many damn hours wasted~~

Tired...good nite.

Life too hectic

Finally, after so many days, i got some rest today. This week has been busy, interesting but tiring. All the day, i slept less than 5hours. In a week time. Now that im in Sg Long, taking Business Accounting, staying at Cypress Condo. It is a nice place, very homely feel. If there is flaws, then it will be, the house is too big. Donno why, since small, i don't like a big house. It makes you feel empty. PLUS, chances of meeting other members will be lesen; talk less also.
Bigger house = more personal space = not good relationship.

SOMEMORE hard to keep clean...hehhee Cypress is not until that big anyway~

Everyone is welcome to visit my place. Now that only 3 of us in the house...(the others haven't move in) the house is kinda quiet. hmmm....Im will be alone in the house over the weekend. Not scary. Its good for me to have some personal space at this comfortable place. I can have a good rest then. :)

Afterall, it was a much comfy house compared to Genting Kelang; the place i stayed last time. Only thing is, to get out of Sg long through here, is kinda hard unless you have car. Public transport is limited.

Today, went for the orientation for Ice breaking. We were lucky enough to won as champions...winning 6 games out of 10! Most of us were determine and had a good team spirit. Well, you can't expect everything to be perfect. Of course there are some guys and girls in the group that didn't cooperate, not steady.

Afterall. we won alot of prizes. It was a happy day although i personally think the design of the game isn't good enough. The ice didn't really break. Coz all the while, we were fighting with the same group. Meaning, we didn't face other groups also~~ ITs kinda unfair and not strategic laaa~~ (I miss interact club, organizing games and making fun of people~~hehee)

Finally, Uni started. Am happy and excited to go through all the obstacles together with friends!

Anyhow, Uni life just started, I am already sick. Flu, caugh, and now with terrible sore throat after the telematch this morning. hahaa

Don become a mistress

Keeping a mistress is good. Being a mistress is bad.

(Like i know @@ Like i've become a mistress...muahahaaha)

A mistress is a fair-weather friend! As long as you are sweet, loving, he will be here for you. But as long as you are not, he walk right outside, slam the door wihtout even saying GOODBYE~

If you are a wife, even when you have nothing to give, when you needed him the most, he will go over you, lend you a shoulder and give you a big one hug!

When you are a mistress, as long as you are happy and nice, he loved back. When you are unhappy or upset, he would feel blamed and then argue and distance himself.

A man gives mistress conditional love. Husband gives unconditional love.

If you want to test whether your boyfriend treat you as a mistress or wife, see what he does when you are in painful or difficult times. If, now, he is your bf, he already treat you as a mistress, then you can walk right outside, slam the door and say BYEBYE to him(for goodness sake, we women are better, at least we say byebye)!

IF you say its okay being a mistress, i don't stop you. Maybe 1 day, you will realised why wife is much more compared to mistress around the globe!

Message is : Don't let your boyfriend treat you as a mistress!

Updates

28th Dec - Going up KL ( Staying at Seri Kembangan )
29th Dec - move house, night - velocity KL
30th Dec - no plan yet. Shopping maybe~
31st Dec - Hope to go genting, but nobody bring me...
1st Dec - Sleep at home
2nd Dec - Join my coll mates at Sg long
3rd Dec - Sem 1 kick off a good start!

I had been busying lately. I don't really know what am I busying with. I only know that i ate like nobody business. Fat like this is the fattest I've grew throughout my life!

I'll miss my heater and shower, my Queen size spring mattress, AIR COND, princess life ( no need wash clothes, dishes, find food, have car to drive )

AWWWWWWW...

Abit sad huh?

Never mind, i think i miss my friends :)

ANd the freedom!

SHOPPING ALSO!

heheheee

life is not that bad afterall yeah?

Oh ya, who will be going to velocity KL? Is a music fest, let me know. I need a group of friends to let me join. hehee

In the middle of the road

If you cannot take it, go find for an answer. Is better to kill yourself in the end and let yourself die, than suffering in the middle of the road, letting the car to knock you everytime they passes by; dying slowly.

Rather than you missing someone miserably there alone, let her know, go for everything you can do to gain her back. At least in the end, you know the outcome. 50 years later, you won't be thinking, "if i did this or that, will the result be this and that" "will we be happily ever after..."

Make your life no regrets. If you can't let go, then face the fate bravely and see whether you can overwin fate. Find for an answer.

There is nothing as in the middle of the road but yellow stripes and dead armadillos. The truth is that the most dangerous place to be is in the middle of the road. Many people don't know what they want, but they are very sure that they don't have it! Decide to do something now to make your life better. The choice is yours.

Decide then do it, don't think. If you think you want to do something, you only do it when it is convenient(no obstacle). When you are decisive, you accept no excuses, only result!

"Not what we have, but what we use, Not what we see, but what we choose."

CHEERS!

Merry Christmas!

Change--> Changing--> Changed

This is a cycle. THings kept changing. Before we realises, another change have changed. I was talking with my mum on the car, regarding the heavy rain. Mum was saying, this is the ever 1st time rain strike so heavily and earlier than expected. 2 words caught me. "1st time" and "expected".

If there is no 1st time, will there be 2nd time and forth? Today, is there anything that we can expect?

Today, your boyfriend may be telling you, "I love you forever". Your best friend may tell you, "No matter what happened, how bad we quarreled, I'll help you whenever you need" Your friend may tell you, " i like you so much that I doubt we will even quarrel".

Is there anything as absolute?

I told my mum, "1st time?? hahaha maybe 10 years later, M'sia will have snow too!

Mum said, "impossible"

Caught!

Impossible???? Is there anything as IMPOSSIBLE?

Give it 100 years back, you think our fellow ancestors believe just a square box can communicate with people thousand miles away? then get reply instantly? You think our ancestor believe a small case can capture and print out the image we saw? What will they think if they saw another clone of them standing right in front of their eyes?

(okay~ i know my proof are not strong enough...PLease~~ for the sake of I've already tried very hard to porve nothing is impossible, let me convince you, believe me...)

To be a great winner is to be a survivor. Adapt to change. Take as it comes. Live life cool.

(my 6 years old, felisza's phrase; "cool man!" haha)

Just remember, always darkest before dawn. Sunshine after rain. No matter what, life goes on...so, if you can choose to be happy or sad, why choose to frown?

;)


P/s : My house will be holding a bbq party on christmas eve. Everyone is invited!

FLood~~

Its CHRISTMAS!!! Even East Asia can feel the winter now...

Give 10 years? Maybe Malaysia will have snow too!!

Ladies and gentlemen, Batu Pahat still not in a bad situation YET. Compared to the whole Kota Tinggi is gone, 6 lives killed; 4 in Segamat, 2 in Kluang, with no power supplies...poor thing~

http://www.thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2006/12/22/nation/16396112&sec=nation&focus=1

Just now when i was driving around, Batu Pahat river cannot take anymore water~~~ Places around that area already reach half the metre high. So scary to drive with the woods all down the road...and water just below your leg... BUt say, continue rain for another 2 days? my house will flood also~~~ @@ which never before happen. hehehee I was joking with my mum, " maa, if our house flood, we still can run to 3jie's house" Coz 3rd sis house is up the hill.

Muaaahhahahaa

Im so glad that im still alive and kicking...ehhehe Still sitting down here, with laptop infront of me, wireless provided, food and comfy bed around!

Still manage to get out of the house, watched movie and hang around with friends...


My best best buddies in secondary school...


Still manage to make bras~~


Showing off their art work~


The titanic Ice Cream (8 scoops) Everyone like ghosts come out from 7th month.


And...the mixing part~~hehee


And everyone :):)

A special relationship

***
My nephew says,
Zienal : Ah yi, your leg very thin.
Me : yameh? lao kou (address to my mum) says, ah yi de leg very fat.
Zienal : no ar...i think your leg is long and thin.
Me : Next time you see lao kou, you tell her, ah yi de leg very thin ok?
Zienal : hehehe..Ah yi, last time horr...you are thinner, now you fatter liao.
Me : heheheee
Zienal : Ah yi, last time you pretty you know....now you very cute liao.
Me : uh?
Zienal : last time is pretty...now is cute
Me :OOOoooOOO (does she mean im fat now...thats why from pretty become cute?~~ @@ !!!)

You see...even when a kid wants to tell you, you are fat..she says it in a nice way...

***


I want to share something very precious that I just learned, to everyone.

You may not believe me. Everyone may be telling you. You may have heard this a thousand billions times. But you don't believe it. Just like I once do. Until you feel it so many times, you were still doubting whether you believe them..OR not!

My sister once told me when I were to ask a cousin for help. I was quite reluctant to beg my relative for help because all the while in my mind, I always always dislike asking anyone of my family for help. I would rather ask my friends for help if im given a choice. She came out with a word suddenly that shake my heart and brain..., "can ask relative help, why want to ask friend help".

My brother in law and me straight away say,"nolor...i rather beg friends than beg relatives"

To me, at THAT time, to ask people for help is a favour from them. Friends dare to reject. But relative no(i think). So, adding a gram of dissatisfaction from friends (just in case) is better and easier than adding a gram of dissatisfaction from relatives. Because afterall, friends are friends. Turn face, we are no longer friends. Relatives are relatives. Turn face, we are STILL relatives. :)

One very important thing that i just understand now is, since relatives is a kind of special relationship that forever and ever cannot be washed away by time, why not we see this as an advantage than disadvantage?

A special relationship is like a mother and daughter. How bad is the fued is/are....the anger, hatred, whatever.... 1 day, the forgiveness will be given. The relationship will always ever be...SPECIAL. :)

Time can wash away everything. Just not any special relationship between human and human. How amazing is this?

COnclusion?

Carry on scolding, yelling, shouting, rebelling to your families....cause one very day, they will forgive you and forget it. MuaaahhahaHHAHAHAHahahha

Being a kid...

My nephews from S'pore just came back for holidays. Once, we called them babies. I told my sister when she annouced they were back just now, "lets go visit those babies".... And now, it was like yesterday, they were still babies. 3 of them, 10 years old, 8 years old and 7 years old now. :)

They were so happy when we reached there for a short visit. Im so surprised that after a year(or more) they didn't see me, they still remembered, im their "xiao ah yi" ( small aunt )

Seeing them, I have so many thoughts that cannot be describe. Im puzzled seeing them laughing and being so happy with little actions from their siblings. I can't help but feeling happy listening to their stupid question, laughing to their innocent happiness. Hiding here and there can make them SOOO happy. You tell them stories of believes, they ask you so many logical question to make you doubt your stories. And worse is...you can't scold them or whatever...because their questions are reasonable. Most importantly, you remember they are adorable kids. All you can do, is laugh with them.

Why human can't be so naive and pure after grew up? Truly smile only with our heart? How long haven't a human take off their mask and show our true identity?

Can I be naive like kids and have everyone don't hurt me just like they do?

I've like no childhood life since i were little. Can't remember any. I don't have a barbie dolls or a teddy bear. All I can remember was me crying not to go for kindergarten, then got beaten by my dad badly. All I can remember was me crying for my mum to bring me to her shop, not lefting me alone with the maid feeding me porridge. All I can remember was mum holding a sugar cane forcing me to eat, while I was crying not eating.

Awwww...

I didn't want to make this post sounds bitter.

Can I be so adorable to make everyone likes me like my nephews do?

heheee ;)

(only hippo will treat me as adorable as him...*wink)

You are good or bad

Today when the movie i was watching asked...

"...Ask yourself...are you a good person or a bad person"

There!

Is that everything JUST a good and a bad can be defined in a person? Definately no.

But, in your own dictionary of good and bad, how do you classify yourself?

Answer yourself HONESTLY. To admit either you are good or bad, isn't an easy job.

Because...we have to be responsible only to our own self.

Afterall, we are matured enough to clearly define what is good and what is bad. Have we fulfill all requirements of good OR bad? We know the requirements. Of course we knew.

But, do we do it?
Are we?
Were we?
....
.....
....


Now, I know.. life isn't as simple as good OR bad. It is unfair to judge with only these 2 words. Its unfair. HOWEVERRRRRR good a person is.....there is a bad side of him. AND of course...HOWEVERRRRRR bad a person is....there is a good side of him. So how can we judge?

If I repeat my question and say...

"ASK YOURSELF, are you a good person or a bad person"

"ASK YOURSELF"

I said...we can define good or bad distinctly. So, YOU are the only one who knows what you had done. Your intention, your motives, your purpose, your reason, your thinking, your mindset. The whole picture, you see yourself.

(im biting my lips) ***thinking*** (typing you this...)

It is certainly unfair for stranger (people except yourself) to judge whether you are good or bad. It is certainly, 100% FAIR for you, yourself, who saw the whole big picture, to judge, whether you are good or bad.

**FULL STOP**

Add up all the goods...minus all the bads...
Times all the vegetables...divide all the meats...

Answer this question.

(It is not easy to answer this question HONESTLY AND SERIOUSLY to yourself. I salute those people who dare to answer. It is not easy to admit because we really really really know what is good and bad. )

:)

***My request, read back slowly and think!***

Fried rice

Cooking a good fried rice is easy...SEEMS!

Cook the rice, boil the oil, fry the garlic, carrot and mushroom, then, add the rice and chili padi. Mix with soy souce to the rice. And add all the additional ingredients you want to add. Like vege, hotdog, or any others like.

THats it. Easy?

Frying a rice is simple.

But when to add those ingredient? When the fire should turn biger or smaller....

If timing and heat is not well handled...the rice will turn overcooked. Once it is overcooked, nobody will eat your rice. AND you will have to throw it away.

Certain people may think it will be a waste if we are to throw it away. They ate it. But the taste of overcooked will be there and you can't help feeling uneasy about the bad taste.

I cook fried rice for my family today... :)

Same things go to managing people in life.

Colorgenics

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm

Browsing through my friend's blog and i found this...interesting!

My profile...

You are always alert and keenly observant. You are not truly satisfied with your everyday status and you are seeking fresh avenues which can give you the opportunity to prove your worth. You feel that there are still many barriers that stand between you and recognition - but one by one you will overcome them. Your tenacity is your one good point - like an English Bulldog, once you take the bite, you will seldom let go.

Rejection is what you fear the most and it is this fear that makes you unapproachable. You are looking for acknowledgement and above all looking for people who can appreciate you for who and what you are.It's the time of year that you are apt to become extremely restless and emotionally withdrawn. This is preventing you from becoming deeply involved with a person or persons within your sphere of influence. If you are willing to 'let go' and release your inhibitions you will find that a great deal of physical satisfaction will result, far more than perhaps you even believed you were capable of.

The unwanted situation in which you presently find yourself is causing you considerable stress and frustration and your feeling is that whatever you try to do to remedy this is to no avail. You feel trapped. You want to get away from it all as you feel that you are banging your head against a brick wall getting nowhere. You have turned your aggression inwards and you are furious with yourself for not being able to achieve your goals. You need to go away, somewhere where there are less restrictions and where you can be free to make your own decisions.

You feel utterly wretched - worn out. The demands that other people have been making on you have depleted your strength and stamina. You feel powerless to try to remedy the situation on your own and you are looking for what is hopefully known as 'divine intervention'. But be assured your salvation lies in yourself - you have the ability so use it.

Try 2nd time...

You feel that everything is going against you and you are worn out and exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling. You are trying to protect yourself but at the same time you are hiding your feelings, hoping that by so doing, you can avoid exposing yourself to attack. Hopefully this will give you the chance to get on with your life.

Nevertheless, you should be very careful to try to avoid stirring up any opposition which might endanger your plans:You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding.

You are a perfectionist in everything that you put your hand to. You are demanding and very exacting in the standards you apply to your choice of colleagues and friends -perhaps you demand too much from people. That perfection you seek in a particular person is illusive - perhaps it does not even exist. The unwanted situation in which you presently find yourself is causing you considerable stress and frustration and your feeling is that whatever you try to do to remedy this is to no avail.

You feel trapped. You want to get away from it all as you feel that you are banging your head against a brick wall getting nowhere. You have turned your aggression inwards and you are furious with yourself for not being able to achieve your goals. You need to go away, somewhere where there are less restrictions and where you can be free to make your own decisions.You feel worn out - you have no energy and your depleted vitality has created intolerance for any further stimulation. You feel inadequate and this subjects you to agitation, irritation and acute distress from which you try to escape by refusing further direct participation. You have become very wary and cautious but you have an inner strength. You have that determination to get your own way and succeed in the end.

Both have their points that i think is right...

Says who I can't bake a cake?

Do it like a pro! From today onwards, i can proudly shout at people

"I KNOW HOW TO BAKE CAKE OKAY?"

Come on laa...all anybody needs, is a recipe book!!! GOSH, WHAT SO DIFFICULT TO BAKE A CAKE???? DUUHHH~~~

Bake cake~~

LIKE THAT ONLY MAARR... CEHHH...SO EASY~~

THe recipe said...beat until its creamy...How creamy is creamy?


I hate to do this the most! THe flour keep spilling all over...and it takes freaking a long to do it 3 times!


Eee....use hand 1, YUCKS...My hand so butter-ish~~

bEFORE~

TAAAAAAADDDDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.......

Ladies and gentlemen, my Family Nestum Cake....

***I never know cake is so fattening until i make it. YOu know, this cake consist of 20% sugar, 30% butter, 15% flour, 15% nestum, 20% egg. Please love you health and don't ask me bake cake okay? --->>this is for ROn...muaaahahahahhhahahahaha

Fight!

To win something, understand them.

Assume you are your opponent. Put yourself in their shoes. Understand their situation. And think what will you do, if you are the opponent. Then, knowing what your opponent will do, fight them there.

Being a great winner is being unpredictable. If your opponent assume you wrongly, meaning he can't understand you, its hard for them to count your next move. And therefore, they can't easily win over you.

Everywhere, in business, friendship, relationship, war, family, everywhere...

Is about winning or losing. I don't believe there is any win-win solution. Surely, either side must sacrifice a little bit for another to create a "win-win" which is a little bit lose and a little bit win solution.

I had always love to talk with people. Through communicating, I get to understand more people. The way every kind of people use their brain to think. FOr me, its interesting to understand people and fight them, then win of course when im given a chance to.

This makes A type of friends think, "why you mix with nerdys?"
B type of friends think, "why you mix with ah bengs?"
C type think "why you mix with smarty?"
D think "why you mix with night owl?"

Some are as bad as gangsters...some are as good as "mummy's baby".

It makes me see different part of the world. Different types of lifestyle. Different forced to make them so. Also, i see that stepping on different types of shoes, there is a reason for it. GOod or bad.

"If you can't win them, join them" Quoted from 1 of my commenter. This is the sly-est way.

A few photos...

Cam Whoring..

Actually it was supposed to be at Kicthen 21, too bad its closed. So we went to Country Home Taste.

THe loveliest couple...as ever...

HEhee...

We went Mariyam after secret recipe chase us out. Nolaa~ their waiters were friendly.

Amazingly...we talked to our secondary teacher until 12.30++ am rite...

Fact vs Believe

When fact vs believe, who will win?

believe : To accept as true or real.
fact : Knowledge or information based on real occurrences.

TO me, believe wins EVERYTHING.

See! Human have not a single prove, the existing of god. YET, we can end our life, sacrificing for god (last time). Now, people spend thousands a year buying joss stick, paper money. People pray up to 5 times a day believing god will hear them. THe feng shui, the taboo in forest, the ghost, the traditional medicine...

WHat is all these? BELIEVE!

FACT is, there is still no hard prove to show that all these thing exist. But (life always full of but), we believe them.

Believe can be a motivation...ALSO, it can ruin a person's life.

I always always believe things people don't. It motivates me, and people around me. Regarding this, I've done things people think impossible. My achievements? One of the example.. making up a camp in 2 days, including finding participants, renting place to stay, planning activities, food and permission from headmistress with letters, etc etc (Interact Club at the age of 17)...BUT (again), at the same time, my believes discourage me. I believe in "there is a will there is a way"

BUT(again) when there is no way...because sometimes facts are facts. Example, you cannot marry your father. So, when things couldn't turn out like i wanted it to be...I can't sleep, I don't know what to do. I don't want to surrender. I know, fact is there. But my believe take over. So Im lost.

Life is about enjoying the journey. We said this when we win. BUT (again) WHen we lose, hahah, we say, why must it happen?


Life is full of BUT. BEcause life considered many direction point of view. Every 1 degree cannot be regarded as incorrect.

Indeed?

Im happy but sad.
Im strong but weak.
Im laughing but crying.
Im glad but dismay.
Im energized but tired.
Im positive but negative.
Im rational but emotional.
Im love but hate.
Im brave but afraid.
Im winning but losing.

haha

Thus, those feeling are what I am feeling. Which one do you BELIEVE?

Cons of blogging

Did i sound myself too arrogant, over confident in my blog?

Recently, the impact came...

People sending me warning messages...friend closer than same blood sister started to dislike me...even people deleted me as their friendster friend.

I spend quite sometime to digest all these happening. I knew deep inside, all these wasn't an emotional act by them. It wasn't as simple. I knew it can be simple if i take it as "THOSE CHILDISH PEOPLE" like I always did. LIke what i will usually do.

No, not this time. It is all too funny to be coincidence. I shall sit back, and think what I had done. What i had written. Perhaps all those were plainly an accident. But im not taking things as so this time.

If you notice, i haven't been blogging as frequent. I was holding back, afraid of writing the wrong things. A part of me were telling myself that, who cares? this is your blog, I am writing about my life... and i don't have to give a damn about people condeming me.

But still, inside, who don't want things to be perfect? Who don't want to be liked by everybody?

Im going to do some soul seaching about this...

Am i taking this emotional?

The point is...these people that did the small action are people so closed to me. I can't help but care what they think about me.

Thank you for giving me a feedback, positive or negative. Appreaciated.

Understand this!

Looking at the fishes in the pond
we saw the fishes swimming in the water freely
clearly in our eyes, without water, they will die
but living is like fish in the water
we do not sense the existence of air
like us living in the water without realising.

UN secure NESS

Its hard to interpret our feeling you know...sometimes, not sometimes, should be most of the time...we felt something but we don't know. For me it happens...

There is a feeling I realised that i felt most of the time. But i didn't know. I'll start to do weird things, normally i will call it as crazy things. And at that time, i will start to think im crazy. BEcause i don't do things at my will. Im unhappy for no reason and wanted everyone to ignore me. When people ignore, i felt empty. WHen people call, i felt annoying...and i will say things that THAT person doens't want to hear. All sort of hurting words...

But lucky that i realised what is it. Now i know.




Im afraid, very little inside, im scared, im lost, im empy, im feeling dangerous...So, i build up a wall, and start protecting myself in my own way.




:)

This explain, why last time I told Ron, that i won't love anyone so that no one can hurt me. :)

http://cheryl123.blogspot.com/2006/10/im-crazy.html

UNSECURE!

Since tiny, i had this feeling of unsecureness. HAH, since small, i cried like nobody business. I forced my mum to say "i love u" after she beats me or scolded me. If she don't say...i will keep repeat

" I DON CARE, YOU MUST SAY YOU LOVE ME"

"I DON CARE, YOU MUST SAY YOU LOVE ME"

"I DON CARE YOU MUST SAY YOU LOVE ME"

UNTILLLLL

she said it. Never failed!

I can repeat the same sentence non stop for 1 hour +
(my family still keep repeating abt this...laugh at me)

Another weird things i do when i was small...

I don't go to kindergarten at 1st. I will cry when my mum leave. CRY the whole school upside down. THen, in the end...my mum got no way with me so, she brought me back along. hahaa

If unluckily, my dad found out, i will got beaten again~ POOR ME!

Am so happy to understand myself more.

Thats why people....

leave a comment, and tell me, you love me. :) thanks!

If not, i will start saying

"PLS SAY YOU LOVE ME"

"PLS SAY YOU LOVE ME"

"PLS SAY YOU LOVE ME"

KL @ Part 2 & 3

THe thing that we cannot missed....CLUBBING!!!!


WEnt to Maison last Saturday...

Darius looks like he wants to kiss me rite? hahaa~~ He asked me to get my ass off and let him sit actually~~

And i met other friends there unexpectedly... but didn't take picture...thanks to the 2nd round, upstair~ i got quite sober for that!....Flaming lamborgini was nice though...thank you..if you guys read!

After clubbing...

From left : Kengwei & gf(Li Sze), CHeryl, Winnie, Wendy, Nabila, Darius, Kanglok @ gf (Jye Chi)

Went to mamak and eat later...Nabila who didn't touch the alcohol got drunk herself with us...i was like asking her in the car(on the way to BRJ) "ehh...u not scared wan huh? sitting in a car with a bunch of drunk people and drunk driver~~"

That girl, cooly said "why scared? i always hang around with drunk people"

And she follows us shouting with the window wind down~~ @@

It was a fun night at Maison, music nice, environment nice, people nice, DJ nice...met friends unexpected also nice.

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WENDY WAS ROBBED AFTER THAT! (Part 3)

It was like this, WEndy's bf got really really worried (i guess) and insist to find Wendy at UM even though he lives at Klang and even though its already 4 sth in the morning.

Then, when he reached...guess its 5 something...they wanted to pump petrol for the car. Unluckily the petrol station was closed so they stop the car at the roadside...QUARRELING cum DISCUSSING about either sending wendy back to UM n he goes back OR they go pump oil then eat breakfast...

A few minutes then, 2 bikes with 3 person came over...1 bike park behind of the car, 1 park infront...

And that 3 guys said they are police...Wendy thought it was a prank...coz they were wearing clothes-not-police-look AT ALL!

So wendy's bf asked him to show Police ID...

And he sensed not right, then he intend to start his car engine, knock the bike and chao!

But that guy used his helmet and break the car window, tried to grab the key!

Wendy's bf was great! I meant it. I donno how, but he used his leg, kick that guy thru the window...GREAT ISN'T IT? (i seriously donno how his leg can kick so high~~)

THEN!

That guy used a spana to hit his head...

and they got scared...so gave him money n hp..

I was sleeping at the time...

they drove themselff to hospital in UM...

And wendy called...imagine i was SOOO FREAKING tired...i donno what she is talking

until...she told me her bf was hit by a spana in the head...and she asked me go UM hospital. Thats all the thing i can't remember after she hang off...coz i wasn't awake!

I wake Darius up! But he don wan to go...coz he donno wat happened i guess~

THen, i can't sleep...i was so worried..but im helpless...(i have no transport to go there), and i can't contact them(didn't know wendy's hp lost that time)

Luckily wendy called for the 2nd time. I was totally awake already...and asked her exactly what happened...

She said, she got no hp, and can't remember any number except mine.

By this time, I tell myself...i must forced Darius to bring me no matter what...

And i called him for like 5 minutes, and finally he wake up and fetch me ~~

FLY to UM hospital...

Counter say they are at there, there say they are at Ward, Ward say they are somewhere else..and we are helpless again~ STUPID HOSPITAL!

in THE END, Darius saw them thru a glass..

and they came out right on time...I saw WEndy's bf's shirt all covered with blood~~His eyebrow there stich a few..

Wendy was okay...

Gave them water, money and my handphone.

Grabbed some picture for here...thanks to Darius...he deleted! HMMMPP

And wait till their UM friends arrived from hospital...den we went back!

All the while in hospital...Darius was quiet, seriously im quite scared of him that time. Probably he is angry that i woke him up~~

KL @ Part 1

I met Johnsson Wee, the Project Superstar winner!

Conversation was like this:

(I walk to MAC, he was sitting there like very boring, just finish his make-up n jus ate)

(he stand up n shake hand with me...gave me a puzzled look)

me: errrrr....you donno me never mind...as long as i know you okay already...

John : huh....?

me : nolaa... just wanted to take a picture with you, ok ar?

John : Ohh...no problem...come..come..

(wendy came over to help us take picture...1st one )

*chi kit chi kit

John : see..see.......

me : OIIII wendy...not nice laaa

Wendy : ok ok take again...

*chi kit chi kit

John : waahh my make up very thick! but thanks anyway...(shake hand with me and another puzzzled look)

**I was wondering maybe he wants my name, but i thought it was a waste of time to tell him my name...LIKE HE WILL REMEMBER!

Me : (shake hand with him) *pause* Im Cheryl

John : okay okay..nice to meet you!

Me : hey, is there any chance that we can keep in touch?

John : err.r......

Me : okay okay...i understand...never mind laa

John : you can actually reach me thru my website u know? hehee my website address is www.johnfc.com (if i didn't remember wrong)

Me : okay okay...thanks ya!

-end-

Then i went to print out our photo....wrote my name, email and hp num behind...

and pass it to him!

WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKA

THE MOST HILARIUS THINGS I'D DONE!

not left not right not front not behind

I felt something. But I didn't know what was it. I tortured my brain and force it to come out with a word that can describe exactly what my feeling is. No. In the end, I sort of gave up finding the vocab. I give it a sigh. Perhaps, there is no word that can describe that feeling.

So, here's it.

HAIHHHHH

After so much we've seen, so much we've played, so long we've took, so much we've hope...

Life sometimes is pretty funny isn't it? I think most of the people out there knew far too well, UNTIL they are lazy argue-ing this already~~

Not right not left not front not behind. Not everywhere.

two roads diverge into a yellow woods...(remember this?)

What if, you won't feel any better choosing either one of the road? Can we just stand there, not moving?

Isn't it feeling glad for now is good enough?

( A little thoughts of the day. )

SAD

I don want to blog already...

Nobody comment except ROn..n i think he is giving me face because im his gf~~

SOB SOB

Say no more~~ i don wan blog already...

decided!

You guys spoiled me with 18 comments...then later throw me into the seas with only Ron commenting.

I hate you guys! So cruel...

Where is SHarman? where is WEndy? where is hazel? Where is jeff? Where is bryan? Where is anonymous? Where is everybody?

Sob Sob

Forget it~ Im talking to wall i know..

Although everybody kept telling me...No comment doesn't mean nobody read your blog..but you know..

SIGH

Nobody can understand the feeling of getting alot of commentS!! Although rationally, we know people have been reading...but still, comments are the steel proof that somebody is reading...you know...

ok~ i'll really forget it~ nobody is reading..

SobSob

I hate im woman

woman is sooOOOOooo crazy!

I hate myself because woman do things funnily. First, woman sacrifice for man! They do it happily without people asking them or requesting them to. Willingly, and they said in the begining that they are enjoying doing those sacrifices.

Then, one day, she suddenly wake up...feeling extremely tired. In her mind "WHATS WRONG WITH ME?" Wondering why is she making her life miserable...thinking...why does she need to answer his call everytime? Why must she be there when he wants her to? Why she needs to make herself so tired for a no-future? Why must she wait for him everyday? Sometimes even till dawn? Wake up early in the morning just to say good morning and BLA~!!!! (those are the things normal couple and stupid woman do rite?)

And what woman do, is...cancel all her activities to make herself available for man~~ What man do, is...continue his life's schedule~

Life, where got fair?GRRRRR

Woman wanted to complain. Yes we do. Feel lucky if your woman didn't complain! But most woman complaint. Smart woman bear the bitterness and swallow it all by herself. *AWW so bitter* haha because smart woman thinks what the heck? He has no fault. He never asked me to. So we the woman is left, wordless, become a crazy woman who likes to complain! ARRGG

What do we woman want??? We 1st say, we will sacrifice happily, then we complain! APALAH~!!!! I hate woman!

Can anyone turn me to a man? To have a woman treat me like this? haha~

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"women are from venus, men are from mars"

John Gray says, woman likes to compliant, and guy will offer solutions to solve the problem. Sorry we don't want solution! We only want somebody to listen to. SOMEBODY to share. Then, after all the complaints, eventually, she will feel better. (Yeah, i did feel better now)

When a man complaint, woman likes to offer unsolicited advice. This makes a man think he can't solve the problem by himself(arrogant I say!). When woman 'help' a man with his prolem, he thinks woman is underestimating him. Don't trust him.

**************************************************************

Thank you John Gray. Now i know...Woman just want to let man knows that exactly what amount of sacrifices a woman has done. To be appreaciated. YEAY woman really can count! Coz she don't want her sacrifices to be wasted. I mean, what is the use of doing it when a man don't know the exact total? hahaha CRAZY WOMAN!

Nothing Better To Do

NINE last things i just did =
1. last place you were: Sea View Restaurant ( hard to explain..last year sis wedd left over tables..if u understand)
2. last cigarette: NEVER laa...siao~
3. last beverage: chrysantimun (DONNO HOW TO SPELLL!!!)
5. last movie watched : World Trade CEntre
6. Last cd played: Jay's STILL FANTASY
7. Last bubble bath : what heck is bubble bath laa~~~?
8. Last cried: hmmm...should be 3-4 days ago
9. Last drink alcohol : awww...Long long ago...hmm last month?

EIGHT have you evers =
1. have you ever dated someone twice: yeah~ sad
2. have you ever been cheated on: YEAH~sad
3. have you ever kissed someone: bodoh...who dont?
4. have you ever kissed someone you regret: kiss only maa...what is so big to be regret? wasting time..so stupid
5. have you ever fallen in love: AWWW...DAMN!
6. have you ever lost someone: *&$#^Q@#$ im getting fedup with this section's ques!
7. have you ever been depressed: If im immortal...den i never...*@#)%#
8. have you ever eat a life animal: Nonono....i don even kill moisquito for goodness sake~


SEVEN favourite branded things =
People...talking to branded people makes me feel im branded too!
watch! qualities makes the different.
Wallet...because u carry them everywhere...
hummm...wat else?
wait wait...who don't like branded things if they have money? SKIP!


SIX things you did in the past four days=
1.More then 6...which to write? ONlINe, tv, sleep, talk on the phone, errr toilet? EAT? !!!!*#&(q*%#


FIVE things on your mind right now =
1. sleepy...
2. HIM!
3. HER
4. how to improve myself to be the best person in the world???
5. How to get thinner...


FOUR people you can tell pretty muchANYTHING to=
1. Hazel lorr
2. WEndy lorrr
3. Ron lorrr
4. Vivien lorrr
Can i have 5? eehehehe


THREE favorite colors --
Depends on my mood...i like colourful n sweet colour...Sometimes green, red, pink, blue...It will need to see on which object the colour is rite?


TWO things you want to do before youdie =
1. hmmm...bEING happy
2. hugs from everyone i love :)


ONE goal for this year =
1. hmm...Being love by the person I love always!

Name 3 things in your Bag/pouch/POCKET:
wallet, keys, thats ALL!

Name 3 things you do when you're really stressed:
Sing my lung out
Keep quiet in a quiet environment
Sleep

Name 3 places you go on a daily basis
Toilet, room, in front of pc!

Name 3 favorite fruits:
I like fruits...3 too little to mention. Every fruits? Somebody care to buy fruits for me? ehhee

Who are you thinking about right now?
Hummm...my prince charming...hahaha

Who did you last talk to on the phone?
my prince charming!

Whose birthday is next?
mummy!

What do you wish to do right now?
ermm...go back to tarc..sobz sobz

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
donno...pyjamas bought by mummy..

What was the last thing you ate?
dried guava

What color of shirt are you wearing?
White..

What is the closest item near you that is black?
The laptop im using now~ ahha

What do you wear more; jeans or shorts?
shorts...cooler

What song do you currently hear?
J'ay's ting ma ma de hua...nice song!

What was your dream last night?
A very very very sweet dream

When did you last go to the mall?
This afternoon, if Summit Parade Batu Pahat is a mall!

When did you last burn a candle?
Day before yesterday...i use aromatheraphy; Lavender to help better sleep.

When did you last see your best friend?
Hazel, when did i last see u? February if im not mistaken..

When do you wanna see someone you love ?
When i needed to be hug most! BTW, i see him everyday...he is sleeping now! Hippo la...hehe

IM hacked

2 days ago, midnight~~ i was on in MSN...

Somebody told me, he wanted to test something. I agreed because...

All i have to do...is answer to his few question...

I was boring at the time, so i agreed.

He asked~ Name me ur 5 best friends name.

2nd question, Your fixed line number its under whose name...

And thats for it.

He says, now, you remember this password... "ABCDE"

Then he asked me, NOw, you count 1 - 10

I counted...1...2...3...4...5...6..7...8..9!

What happened next, is my msn log out, and it says, it is log in at another place...

I was like *(mailto:$#^@#*($#(q)*&#q$&$# WTF???????

THEN, i remembered he asked me to remember the password, i typed and OMG

I was log in...

After that, i was not only a little furious..."MY GOD? WHAT THE HECK JUST HAPPENED?"

MY MSN PASSWORD WAS CHANGED?!!!

THen he told me "ehhh..go change ur friendster password...its too easy laa..hahha"

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I asked him, WEEIII what else password do u know...

and he sent me a file...

www.hoobie.net/brutus

HE says, he knew all my passwords and id, EVERYTHING!

MY GOD...am i just willingly being hacked?

@@

<>

Girls' priviledge

"wake up laa...what time already now???"

"Im having menstrual cycle~~~ very tired wan you know...can't u understand"


"you room so messy..cannot tidy up huh?"

"Im having menstrual cycle...cannot!"


"so lazy...donno how to go exercise huh?"

"Im having menstrual cycle...not enuf blood..later faint how?"


"why everyday cook i-don-like food?...im having menstrual cycle...later i not enuf minerals how?"


"cut fruit for me..pls"

"you cannot cut yourself HUH"

"im having menstrual cycle...later accidentally cut my hand...will waste blood want!!!"


"why go toilet for so long"

"having menstrual cycle...go toilet very long wan..u donno MER?"


"who step on your tail today? A little bit lost temper!!!"

"I having menstrual cycle...very xin ku wan lerrr"


"Don simply throw things can or not?"

"IM HAVING MENSTRUAL CYCLE LA"


**CAn you imagine a piece of bread stays under, where you feel wet and dirty, 24 hours a day, 5days stick together with you? Worse still, your kidney and stomach feel uncomfortable and all the time you are worrying that it might leak out? WORSE is...you gotto wash your underwear, pants, bedsheet, bolstersheet if it leaks out! You know how difficult is to wash away the blood stain...and imagine if you are being SO LUCKY everyday~~~

It irritates people okay...Please give us the priviledge...

KORLIEN

i mean me... PITY me please...

2 days ago...

my mum cook chicken feet!

feet or foot? whatever~~ YOu understand...

1 day ago...

my mum cook MEE HOON SOUP!

Fine~~ all the food that i don like...nvm

TODAY

MY MUM COOK

PIG'S FOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I ain't gonna keep quiet anymore...

SHE IS TORTURING ME!!!

I BANG INTO HER ROOM...

and say, "hey, maa...ni zai zhe muo wo si ma?"

"3 days straight u cook everything i don't like, 1 day chicken feet, 1 day mee fen tang, 1 day PIG FEET????"

"TOmorrow what u want to cook? My foot?"

GGRRRRRRRR

To Hazel

Treasure
is when we know we are losing it
Sad
is when we know we cannot achieve it
Lost
is when we know not what to do
Happy
is when we know we had done it
Regret
is when we know it will possibly turn out perfect if we do it bravely
Glad
is when we know we once have it
Sigh
is when we know life is ugly
Angry
is when we know not why it must be like this
Emotional
is when we hope it is possible
Rational
is when we know the fact that it is impossible
Cry
is when we know that we are so naive
Believe
is when we know we can do nothing more than that
Struggle
is when we want to believe life is beautiful
Strong
is when we think we can hide the fear
Weak
is when we can hold no more
Touched
is when we know somebody is there at least


:) Always sunshine after rain as long as you wait and don say give up. Friendship forever from me.

Love him!

I love him... coz he always know...

when to talk

when to beg me

when to shut up

when to hug me

when to kiss me

when to call me many times for no reason

when to get angry

when to lose his temper

when to sleep

when to wait for me for counless hours

when to look at me and say nothing

when to be quiet when he is blamed for no reason

when to say he loves me

when to pretend he is not there

when to dry my tears

when to look at me innocently

when to shout ...

Anonymous of the day

So I'm here. For the ANONYMOUS.

To those who don't know, this were his/her comments...

":(if i were you Ron (if i'm not mistaken, you are her bf?), i wouldn't comment on anything from now on.p/s: YOU ARE BEING PUBLICLY INSULTED:CHEERS: "

sent twice.

":)since when is it required to have approval before a comment can be posted? guess someone got scared of random posts. u've been publicly insulting ron (he's your bf for crying out loud), and i dare you to allow this if you have any dignity left in you. *disgusted*:CHEERS: "

sent twice.

On the tittle "miracle" posted on Wednesday, 1st of Nov.

I did not just look into his/her commentS and got myself angry. I did not. In fact, my 1st reaction was, asked Ron whether i have insulted him. Asked my friends whether any of my words have insulted Ron. And all answers given to me was negative.

After then, i smile...

WOW look!

Who is there to create such a mess in MY BLOG? so now everybody knows, why i name this blog "OWN MY WAY"? Coz i have my own ways...and if you don like,

GET LOST!

I welcome you and dare you back if you still have ANY dignity in you, to answer all OUR questions. Come on, you dare me, i POSTED ALL your comments...I mean all...including the same ones which you make it like you scared i won't publish! HAH

For your information, i set the comments to be moderated because sometimes people send the same comment accidentally for twice. I will only post 1, for that reason, it is moderated. And i never not publish any comment that my fellow readers sent. Purely because i appreaciate them. Unless they request for it.

Grabbing this oppurtunity, I would like to say alot of thanks to my fellow commenters...for the comments posted and cared that you guys have showed. Like I always say, throughout my life, the happiest thing happened to me will ever always be...

whenever I'm in trouble, my friends always stand in the frontline for me. Deepest thank you and big fat HUGS!

Im here, not wanting to insult that ANONYMOUS...not wanting to DEGRADE myself like he/she did. Im here, to request for answers.

By the way, i dindn't know or expect my blog can be this famous. I don't think many bloggers receive this kind of comments do they? Unless they are bloggers like KennySia or Xiaxue. Maybe i should upgrade my blog and see how many people read each day. Thank you for reading. Of coz, including YOU the anonymous who make an effort for this blog.

CHEERS!

She says...

She says...

"
Im nobody to be sad
Im nobody to ask why
Im nobody to request
Im nobody to stop

Im nobody to be jealous
Im nobody to be pleased
Im nobody to be missed
Im nobody to be called

too much to care
too much to consider
too much to sacrifice
too much for even a dream

nobody is to be hurt
nobody is to love
nobody is to hope
nobody is to cry

How can a train goes derailed
when nobody can made a mistake
How to say impossible is nothing
Like you say a cat can marry a dog

How to not struggle
when everything is too smooth for a r'ship
How to just feel numb
When everything is never meant to be

At the end of the day
she says..
the grass is greener on the other side
then she smiles and say "hopefully"
"

miracle

We always complain, that miracle don't happen. A sudden thought after some miracle happened on my life.

Miracle only happen when you don't expect it to happen.

We tend to take things for granted. Miracles are one of them.

WHen we demand too much...demand for a miracle to happen, even after it happened, we don't call it as miracle. So, its not surprising and nothing worth to be happy about anymore.

Life is full of miracle. Believe me.

Be a easily contented people...open up your hearts and it will happen on you!