Saturday, September 05, 2009

The greatness of Synergy Effect

I didn't understand what synergy means but I remembered we used to say that no one is perfect. But, nobody have ever said no group is perfect rite?

How to explain synergy?

I personally feel it so strong during Companies training. In a simple cheer leading competition, it can be of no attractive than the other, what so ever, but when you know how to create the environment to let other people do it together with you, TOGETHER!, then, that is call synergy effect. The impact is so strong that it almost wins EVERYTHING ELSE.

Imagine in a group, everybody their bad habits and own "culture". But as long as there is awareness, when the habits came, group member can always be as a reminder, support the other and encourage one another. And later, new habits and new culture formed and spread and how good this society is then?

It requires a very OPEN HEART to believe the DIFFERENCE in people. Instead of being frustrated, UNDERSTAND and ACCEPT the weakness in people, why they are doing so. Be forgiving, learn to forgive and forget, give chance, as everybody deserves another chance.

Recently, I re-realised that they are so many GOOD IN PEOPLE, in every human race. They are also the bad ones. It fully depends on which side whether is the good or the bad you wanted to focus on your brain, which then forms an impression. And whether you believed it or not, what you focus is going to expand. So, we choose how things are going to be. Because WE CHOOSE WHAT WE THINK!

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Interest

Few days ago, I met with 1 of my mentor. He is an old man who had already gone more than half the centuries, who had inspired so many people, yet so humble and ambitious. Thank you.

So he inspired me and I came out with this words a few days ago, "where lies the interest, there goes the career"

It might sound very stupid, because one of my friend doubted it so much, then he asked me, what about those guy who only likes to play games. Should they make it their career too? I answered it can, but you need to be really good at it.

Before I found what I really wanted to do, I always tell people that I would like to continue studying because it is very nice where you have alot of free time, and have less financial stress. I like studying so much that I didn't know what will happened after I finished my degree. So I decided to further my studies.

Today, I think I found my path. My mindset changed. Instead of wanting to continue my study, having alot of freedom that I can go anywhere I like, I look forward to the life that I can truly focus on, things I really wishes to do in order to build my career. Many things are holding me back now, like exams are coming, I must focus on my studies instead of anything else.

We are so young, so fresh, that we are full of ideas and ideas, 1 thing is stopping us, time and knowledge to the ideas.

Everyday, I look forward to my graduation which will be end of December this year so that I can expand myself and achieve my dream of life. 

I told my bf this morning that no matter how hard our life is going to be, we are going to buy a house as soon as we can because you can't rent a place to stay forever. He agreed. Its going to be difficult but I guess it is not too difficult for us to make things happened. We will build our empire together!

I appreciate the wisdom. Thank you. :)

Sunday, August 30, 2009

The friendship

If it hurt her that much...it hurts me even more. Its all because of that blog I wrote weeks ago about the friends. She said we are no longer friend ever since I wrote that post in my blog. "How many years friends we are, and she(refers to me) doubted on my personality", she said.

I know I really acted so childish yesterday. I was drunk and angry with whatever hell I am in. I am so sad over everything. Feeling hopeless. She asked me to stay overnight but how am I to face everything after what had happened in the early next morning when we are finally awake? How am I to face her parents when I am in such a stage... Can she understand why and let me?

We are both stubborn.

To many, love are their last thing left after losing everything. To me, pride will be the only thing left for me. So no matter what in that kind of situation, I am not gonna lose my pride. I know its stupid. But my life is so stupid.

We had both say things really hurtful. I hope we apply what she told me yesterday...drunk and when angry words are to be deleted. Because i know we are just so hurt...nobody really meant what we said.

I sent messages to apologised...but it is being ignored. This seems to be our cross road, depending we have the will to save this friendship or not. How much we value it and believe this is just one of the obstacles we have to face to make oure frienship grow even stronger than before.

My eyes now are very scary when I woke up. I think back what happened and I remember she hit me because I told her to fuck off and told her I can't stay over because I have my pride. Its more painful in the heart.

I hope after what happened yesterday we can become friends like before again. Never mind it takes time. I will wait for the day to come.  Because I treasure this friendship.

Friday, August 28, 2009

Care?

So when toleration has reached its limit, we decided it is time. To hurt this relationship... Did he cared? Why should I being so good but not appreciated? Why be good then? Rebel.

I am not someone you can simply yell at when you are unhappy...no matter what happens!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

tired

It seems to everybody that we are handling this relationship very well..but book shall not be judged by its cover..this explains our relationship..many times,frustration and anger are just on for 2minutes and with a swallow of saliva, it is then being forgotten until it happens again..and again..and again..and to the point that it burst out like now. Its been several times that i felt he is already given this relationship up, because no matter how hard i try to solve the problem, he seems motionless, just keep asking me what do i want in a very bad manner.. It hurts! Im jus merely trying to figure things out but what i get in return is a pail of cold water poured over my face.. I kept telling myself that i treasure this relationship, i can't act emotionally, i must control myself but! What do i get in return..u can guest it.. Im kinda tired.. I told him not to regret today after i had a talk with him about everything. He still remains the same. Thus, i told him that i take back my every words, pretend i had never said it before, and we give each other freedom to do everything each wants to do..why fuck do i care for his feeling so much? Have he cared for my feelings??? man, i hope i am not, but i am really sick of things repeating and he being motionless again..as if i am the only person wanting this relationship to continue on..i don want to work the relationship on my own! Fuck off!

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Who you really mix with reflects who you are

Normally we chooses close friends that suited ourselves. The thinking, the behaviour, and the characteristic. When you change, your friends change too...

But many times, we don't choose friends because we want to be friendly. So we friend almost everybody that comes across. But friends influences our everything so much so that one will not even realized that at first you were disagreeing with your "friends" and now, you are doing those thing together with your same friends.

It is very disappointing to say that human are very fragile in everyway. Because we needed so much of support and the feeling of "not alone", this itself can become very positive and negative.

Something happened that I wrote this, I might be wrong but I am kinda sad.

One of my closest friend likes to put people "aeroplane". I don't know whether she even notice it or sees it as something significant. As for me, I am the person always being put aeroplane to, I felt really irritated and annoyed. There was a part time job offers, I told her about it and she agreed. Weeks later, she totally forgotten about it and when I reminds her, she just told me she already promised other friend to work somewhere else in a kind of apolegetic voice.

By right, she promises to work for here first, if she really forgotten, then isn't it that she is supposed to reject the other side? Or because the payments over there is more? Either reason, it is not really acceptable....(I know I am so judgemental...)

So we are left to clean the mess for her. Trying to explain to the person whom asked us to work and find a replacement. How irresponsible?

Today, me and my assingments group member had a tiff. 2 days ago, I talked to 1 of the member about the company which we are supposed to choose. Both of us sort of analysed the questions and I told him that I will be doing part A. Yesterday me and him confirmed the company. Suddenly today, another of my assingments group member sms me and said she will do part A and I will do part C. I already done half of part A. So I told her to do part cCcause I already done half of part A.

Guess what she said? She said she already finished the part A.

I was thinking. WHAT THE FUCK? Yesterday only we decided the company, YOU wasn't even there, and now you said you already finished? Immediately I know this is a shit. I was really angry, because if you don't want to do part C you can just talk to me nicely. But what you do is because I told you I finish half now you say you've completed??? Do you just want to win over or what?

I think she feels not right and she told me is just a joke much later...

I told her is not funny at all...Frankly I was angry..

and then she said I never informed her that Im doing part A and I decided everything on my own.

I got even angrier with this. First, I thought my other group member that I discussed with 2 days ago will inform them together coz I already told him Im doing part A. Sadly he did not. Well ok...thats my fault then. But SECOND, YOU never discuss with me too when u sms me to do part C! If you have no initiative to divide the work earlier, SHUT THE FUCK UP! Coz somebody will have to decide WHO n WHO doing which part and the SLOW people just folllow unless you have both way agreement to change part! This has been our way of doing the assingments isn't it? I were always informed to finish certain part of the assingments without being discussed too. And everytime is like that, never had any problem with it.

She apologised. I accepted..though IT HURTS ME DEEPLY. From person whom I defined as very good friends...I am so disappointed.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Gold

Gold is a symbol of fortune. This is the perception that it gives people. Today, most things devalued but many people are not realizing. The old people used to keep money in long term saving account earning the 5% interest, but are they actually earning? I guess not. With inflation and interest rates moving everyday, money kept depreciating in terms of value so, it is very hard to earn money through saving accounts unless you invest it and make sure you gain. Me and my friends had a sum of money (mind you, our sum of money means we, as STUDENTS "sum" of money, doing part time job etc) and we knew the fact that putting money in saving account does not really earns you more money. Then, I came to ask my sister and she told me about mutual funds. I invested some on it a year ago. Not bad but very slow. Recently, I went to Rich Dad's seminar, and his gold advisor Blair said, gold and silver's price will rise tremendously in future. I always ponder how can I get into this? And so today, I found out that Public Bank actually had a kind of investment called Gold Investment Account. You will buy at least 20gms of gold for initial buy. You were to have at least 2gms of gold in the account as the minimum figures. You have to buy/sell 5gms per transaction. You can withdraw the physical gold subject to t&c. But you can't deposit it physically. Today's gold price is RM106.78.
Live Gold Price

Im interested...