The greatness of Synergy Effect

I didn't understand what synergy means but I remembered we used to say that no one is perfect. But, nobody have ever said no group is perfect rite?

How to explain synergy?

I personally feel it so strong during Companies training. In a simple cheer leading competition, it can be of no attractive than the other, what so ever, but when you know how to create the environment to let other people do it together with you, TOGETHER!, then, that is call synergy effect. The impact is so strong that it almost wins EVERYTHING ELSE.

Imagine in a group, everybody their bad habits and own "culture". But as long as there is awareness, when the habits came, group member can always be as a reminder, support the other and encourage one another. And later, new habits and new culture formed and spread and how good this society is then?

It requires a very OPEN HEART to believe the DIFFERENCE in people. Instead of being frustrated, UNDERSTAND and ACCEPT the weakness in people, why they are doing so. Be forgiving, learn to forgive and forget, give chance, as everybody deserves another chance.

Recently, I re-realised that they are so many GOOD IN PEOPLE, in every human race. They are also the bad ones. It fully depends on which side whether is the good or the bad you wanted to focus on your brain, which then forms an impression. And whether you believed it or not, what you focus is going to expand. So, we choose how things are going to be. Because WE CHOOSE WHAT WE THINK!

Interest

Few days ago, I met with 1 of my mentor. He is an old man who had already gone more than half the centuries, who had inspired so many people, yet so humble and ambitious. Thank you.

So he inspired me and I came out with this words a few days ago, "where lies the interest, there goes the career"

It might sound very stupid, because one of my friend doubted it so much, then he asked me, what about those guy who only likes to play games. Should they make it their career too? I answered it can, but you need to be really good at it.

Before I found what I really wanted to do, I always tell people that I would like to continue studying because it is very nice where you have alot of free time, and have less financial stress. I like studying so much that I didn't know what will happened after I finished my degree. So I decided to further my studies.

Today, I think I found my path. My mindset changed. Instead of wanting to continue my study, having alot of freedom that I can go anywhere I like, I look forward to the life that I can truly focus on, things I really wishes to do in order to build my career. Many things are holding me back now, like exams are coming, I must focus on my studies instead of anything else.

We are so young, so fresh, that we are full of ideas and ideas, 1 thing is stopping us, time and knowledge to the ideas.

Everyday, I look forward to my graduation which will be end of December this year so that I can expand myself and achieve my dream of life. 

I told my bf this morning that no matter how hard our life is going to be, we are going to buy a house as soon as we can because you can't rent a place to stay forever. He agreed. Its going to be difficult but I guess it is not too difficult for us to make things happened. We will build our empire together!

I appreciate the wisdom. Thank you. :)

The friendship

If it hurt her that much...it hurts me even more. Its all because of that blog I wrote weeks ago about the friends. She said we are no longer friend ever since I wrote that post in my blog. "How many years friends we are, and she(refers to me) doubted on my personality", she said.

I know I really acted so childish yesterday. I was drunk and angry with whatever hell I am in. I am so sad over everything. Feeling hopeless. She asked me to stay overnight but how am I to face everything after what had happened in the early next morning when we are finally awake? How am I to face her parents when I am in such a stage... Can she understand why and let me?

We are both stubborn.

To many, love are their last thing left after losing everything. To me, pride will be the only thing left for me. So no matter what in that kind of situation, I am not gonna lose my pride. I know its stupid. But my life is so stupid.

We had both say things really hurtful. I hope we apply what she told me yesterday...drunk and when angry words are to be deleted. Because i know we are just so hurt...nobody really meant what we said.

I sent messages to apologised...but it is being ignored. This seems to be our cross road, depending we have the will to save this friendship or not. How much we value it and believe this is just one of the obstacles we have to face to make oure frienship grow even stronger than before.

My eyes now are very scary when I woke up. I think back what happened and I remember she hit me because I told her to fuck off and told her I can't stay over because I have my pride. Its more painful in the heart.

I hope after what happened yesterday we can become friends like before again. Never mind it takes time. I will wait for the day to come.  Because I treasure this friendship.

Care?

So when toleration has reached its limit, we decided it is time. To hurt this relationship... Did he cared? Why should I being so good but not appreciated? Why be good then? Rebel.

I am not someone you can simply yell at when you are unhappy...no matter what happens!

tired

It seems to everybody that we are handling this relationship very well..but book shall not be judged by its cover..this explains our relationship..many times,frustration and anger are just on for 2minutes and with a swallow of saliva, it is then being forgotten until it happens again..and again..and again..and to the point that it burst out like now. Its been several times that i felt he is already given this relationship up, because no matter how hard i try to solve the problem, he seems motionless, just keep asking me what do i want in a very bad manner.. It hurts! Im jus merely trying to figure things out but what i get in return is a pail of cold water poured over my face.. I kept telling myself that i treasure this relationship, i can't act emotionally, i must control myself but! What do i get in return..u can guest it.. Im kinda tired.. I told him not to regret today after i had a talk with him about everything. He still remains the same. Thus, i told him that i take back my every words, pretend i had never said it before, and we give each other freedom to do everything each wants to do..why fuck do i care for his feeling so much? Have he cared for my feelings??? man, i hope i am not, but i am really sick of things repeating and he being motionless again..as if i am the only person wanting this relationship to continue on..i don want to work the relationship on my own! Fuck off!

Who you really mix with reflects who you are

Normally we chooses close friends that suited ourselves. The thinking, the behaviour, and the characteristic. When you change, your friends change too...

But many times, we don't choose friends because we want to be friendly. So we friend almost everybody that comes across. But friends influences our everything so much so that one will not even realized that at first you were disagreeing with your "friends" and now, you are doing those thing together with your same friends.

It is very disappointing to say that human are very fragile in everyway. Because we needed so much of support and the feeling of "not alone", this itself can become very positive and negative.

Something happened that I wrote this, I might be wrong but I am kinda sad.

One of my closest friend likes to put people "aeroplane". I don't know whether she even notice it or sees it as something significant. As for me, I am the person always being put aeroplane to, I felt really irritated and annoyed. There was a part time job offers, I told her about it and she agreed. Weeks later, she totally forgotten about it and when I reminds her, she just told me she already promised other friend to work somewhere else in a kind of apolegetic voice.

By right, she promises to work for here first, if she really forgotten, then isn't it that she is supposed to reject the other side? Or because the payments over there is more? Either reason, it is not really acceptable....(I know I am so judgemental...)

So we are left to clean the mess for her. Trying to explain to the person whom asked us to work and find a replacement. How irresponsible?

Today, me and my assingments group member had a tiff. 2 days ago, I talked to 1 of the member about the company which we are supposed to choose. Both of us sort of analysed the questions and I told him that I will be doing part A. Yesterday me and him confirmed the company. Suddenly today, another of my assingments group member sms me and said she will do part A and I will do part C. I already done half of part A. So I told her to do part cCcause I already done half of part A.

Guess what she said? She said she already finished the part A.

I was thinking. WHAT THE FUCK? Yesterday only we decided the company, YOU wasn't even there, and now you said you already finished? Immediately I know this is a shit. I was really angry, because if you don't want to do part C you can just talk to me nicely. But what you do is because I told you I finish half now you say you've completed??? Do you just want to win over or what?

I think she feels not right and she told me is just a joke much later...

I told her is not funny at all...Frankly I was angry..

and then she said I never informed her that Im doing part A and I decided everything on my own.

I got even angrier with this. First, I thought my other group member that I discussed with 2 days ago will inform them together coz I already told him Im doing part A. Sadly he did not. Well ok...thats my fault then. But SECOND, YOU never discuss with me too when u sms me to do part C! If you have no initiative to divide the work earlier, SHUT THE FUCK UP! Coz somebody will have to decide WHO n WHO doing which part and the SLOW people just folllow unless you have both way agreement to change part! This has been our way of doing the assingments isn't it? I were always informed to finish certain part of the assingments without being discussed too. And everytime is like that, never had any problem with it.

She apologised. I accepted..though IT HURTS ME DEEPLY. From person whom I defined as very good friends...I am so disappointed.

Gold

Gold is a symbol of fortune. This is the perception that it gives people. Today, most things devalued but many people are not realizing. The old people used to keep money in long term saving account earning the 5% interest, but are they actually earning? I guess not. With inflation and interest rates moving everyday, money kept depreciating in terms of value so, it is very hard to earn money through saving accounts unless you invest it and make sure you gain. Me and my friends had a sum of money (mind you, our sum of money means we, as STUDENTS "sum" of money, doing part time job etc) and we knew the fact that putting money in saving account does not really earns you more money. Then, I came to ask my sister and she told me about mutual funds. I invested some on it a year ago. Not bad but very slow. Recently, I went to Rich Dad's seminar, and his gold advisor Blair said, gold and silver's price will rise tremendously in future. I always ponder how can I get into this? And so today, I found out that Public Bank actually had a kind of investment called Gold Investment Account. You will buy at least 20gms of gold for initial buy. You were to have at least 2gms of gold in the account as the minimum figures. You have to buy/sell 5gms per transaction. You can withdraw the physical gold subject to t&c. But you can't deposit it physically. Today's gold price is RM106.78.
Live Gold Price

Im interested...

Friendship

So good friends has been in and out of my life....I am so sick of it that now I refuses to be so close with anyone knowing that someday they will go out of my life just like it always had been...again~

I think I am lacking of appreciating my friends...but I am kinda sick of adapting, building, and unknowingly it is gone... keeping a bunch of friends requires alot of sacrifice in many terms...

I am kinda sad tonight, somehow I feel like crying. Maybe I felt quite alone, and probably I am correct to admit that I am afraid...

I miss the times when I had a bunch of real true good friends that will cry together with me and hug me and tell me they love me and everything is gonna be alright!

Oh yeay! Today is my birthday....why heck am I so EMO?

*sigh.......

Unexpected

I never thought Diana could be the 1st person to drop in comments. I am glad that you guys are still kind enough to say hi after all that had happened in CDS. I donno whether Im right to feel abit of ashame of myself for resigning...giving things up...

Btw Diana, I see u less stress nowadays too. ;)

I had a surprise party by my classmates right at 12am.


I some sort of felt it, but didn't want to expect coz it might became a serious disappointment.

So afterall, it was very surprise so many of you turn up in such late hours....I truly truly appreciate the effort you guys made.

I am gonna remember my uni's life birthday and gotta miss it I am sure. And the cake....I already missing the green tea cake now. Its so special!



This watch is given by my dear....I love it so much! I had a wonderful birthday...before this I was thinking, as we get older, our birthday is becoming more and more meaningless, less fun and birthday slowly become just another day....

But I am wrong!

Balances

Its been so long since I haven't been blogging...I kind of forget how to share anymore, but well, when there is a will there is a way... So this is my action starting to do it all over again~~

It occurs to me recently that my classmates read my blog. I guess I will open back my blog to public. Who cares what others think about me? As long as I am right, ;)

I realize that the feeling of disliking each other always starts in within and then it spreads and later it ended both disliking each other. ( I am liking to make this kind of conclusion for the starting of my sentence, and then I finish what I wanna blog about in just this 1 sentence @@)

I know this is not convincing...

But many things now requires so much of observation and feelings. Its a kind of communication which includes, LISTEN, OBSERVE & FEEL.

I am loving everybody now and people are going to love me more too!
:)
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I am graduating this December. I started to ponder what I am going to do after I got my degree. There are things that you really want to do and things like you really have to/requires to/need to do.

I am at the beginning stage of worrying that I cannot do as well as I want to. Where to find my confidence? Yeah people are offering me jobs, but when you are at the top of somewhere and going all over again to the second stage, you are worried you wouldn't be at the top again.

So am I overconfident or am I not enough confident?

Gotta start taking more actions!

Puzzle

Puzzle had been something I wanted to try but afraid of it cause Im well aware that I have very less patience... Though last 2 weeks, I went into the puzzle shop @ Sunway Piramid and I decided to hit it a try...decided that I am determine to complete what I start!


Day 1

Day 2Day 3
Day 4
It was really not as difficult as I imagine coz I ALREADY DECIDED I AM GOING TO COMPLETE IT. I also realize that I am very good at colours provided with concentration.

So yesterday, I went to the shop again, bought a wood frame for it and another set of Vincent Van gogh, "Starry Night Over the Rhone" which cost me all together RM256.


The puzzle with frame. RM 80 + RM116 = RM 196 (Have the idea of putting it on bid at eBay and the proceeds will go to charity) whahahaa...sounds cool rite?

"Starry Night Over the Rhone", RM 140

When I bought that, it didn't come across me to be so challenging...I just thought this piece of art gave a lot of room for imagination...it seems to have stories behind it...

Day 1

The colors look freaking the same! While doing it, I am appreciating the art. The leaflets inside the puzzle says Van Gogh was crazy...and it really IS!

To be continue...

National Achiever Congress 2009 & MAPS National Convention 2009

Among the speaker list is Robert Kiyosaki & his wife, & his team, Ewen Chia from Spore, T. Harv Eker (the writer for Secrets of Millionaire Mind).

Going to functions like this opens up our eyes on the other part of the human's world which most of us have no chance to get link with. Of course, many oppurtunities were poured to us like for example we were offered a few jobs too bad we haven't yet graduate. But still we manage to get 1 of our friend whom already graduated to work.

Great isn't it?

The team on stage...can you see? The 1 in red is rich sister...haha

Mixing with everyone much older than us forces us to think of their problem which is the problem we would be facing in the coming time.

Btw, Rich Dad's gold advisor says, silver price will increase quite a figure in some time later.
.999 fine silver, 1 troy ounce selling for RM900 for 5 pieces.


The ticket cost RM1998 for early bird and the normal price is RM4988 for 3 days event(food not provided)...crazy rite? See how rich people spend money!

Actually last month we went to another event called Malaysian Association of Professional Speakers National Convention 2009 (call MAPS National Convention). Among the speakers were Tony Fernandes and a few foreign speakers and Malaysian Speakers. We had much more oppurtunities there coz we were crew dealing with registration and we work at their office for a week time and we get to know the committee there.

The thing is those senior people whom are already soo successful, they are so keen of advising us and guiding us, which I find it very amusing. They are very open and talk to us alot of things on life, business especially the future...

We gain alot of insights and ideas.

I am a big new fans of Tony Fernandes after listning to his talk!

There was 1 particular event that I let us laugh together...
THere was a foreign speaker from New Zealand, with the faces all tatooed, call Ngahi offered to sit with us during the dinner.

There are meanings for all the tattoos on his face...It is their culture to do so. And yeah, there are tattoo on his lips too. Can you imagine how pain it is? URGH

The dinner served rice and curry and all those Malaysian food. He uses fork and knife to eat the rice. (Imagine it, coz the rice is kinda sticky, so abit of it stick together like glutinous rice ball). Vivien was sitting right beside him and she turn over to me whom was sitting at another side of her and LAUGH. I find it very weird so I asked her. I turned to see and guess what? he is trying to folk to rice that is NOT like glutinous rice ball....I tried to stop myself from laughing...(I find myself very rude laughing at people...)

Then, Vivien start her rescueing work. She asked Ngahi, why don't you use spoon and folk? He asked, "How?". So vivien teach him. haha.. Unbelieveable rite? Not he don't know how to use folk and spoon. But he don't know how to use folk and spoon to eat rice. Maybe he haven't even eaten rice at all...


Me and boyfriend playing around during break time...

A dream

Yesterday, I had a really bad feeling about something, so I called home. Nothing happened.

I woke up with a very bad dream this morning. Dreaming that my mother passed away all of sudden. I cried on my dreams.

This evening, my roomate came back and thought I finished the exam early. She asked me, "so early come back ar?"

I asked back, "huh?? exam? what day is today"

I thought I was dreaming...

She said, "today is Tuesday."

"Isn't the exam's on Wednesday?"

" The exam is Tuesday la....how now?"

I didn't had much feelings as the fact haven't yet been digested. She told to go Faculty General Office to see how. My friend whom her mother passed away last time was accepted to sit for supp paper as the main.

I went...

and the lady told me, making that kind of mistake is not a reason at all..

Well yeah...i guess I know...even I myself couldn't accept such a mistake. I still didn't know why I would make such a horrible mistake.

I have to bear the consequences of my own mistake. I knew too well this fact. I told myself if I would have to repeat the whole subject, maybe I deserve it.

The thing I couldn't accept is not that I have to repeat. I deserve it. I can't accept how the hell I made such a mistake. It is not acceptable.

This whole day is like a dream to me. wtf

I bought...
And Beedle the bard...wahahaha...if you don't know, thats a tale in wizarding world of Harry Potter. In the last book, Dumbledore had his will on this pass to Hermione... *Oh..I feel so Hermione*

This book cost RM43, so expensive rite?


Is purely for collection purpose...
Those are picture taken using LX3...I bought it last Friday...wahahha




Nice? After that on about Sunday, I realized Xiaxue bought the same cam! Some of my friends thought I bought it because of her~~ haha


Will be at Genting from Mon - Thurs. So fast, is now study week. I haven't start a single thingie...wuhoo...

Panasonic Lumix DMC-LX3

Someday, this will be mine! wahaha

Bitch

You believe in destiny?

I saw someone's picture today... the face makes me believe in destiny...

Some faces are destined to be a bitch in their life. They have a kind of eyes, that kind of eyes reminds me of foxes...

This is the example I found from google image that I THINK it looks like one :



Then, I relate it to other bitches i knew... they have that kind of eyes too.

My defination of bitch here means those whom will snatch people's boyfriend / husband kind of girls, being a 3rd party, intrude people's relationship... those whom are so selfish that they even will sacrifice own dignity and pride too get what they desire...those whom think they can snatch away people's happiness to grab their own...those whom not willing to face the reality...those who had 2 faces, trying all the best to 'show' people they are so happy now...but actually...deep inside, they are guilty shit. You can cheat the whole world, but you can never cheat yourself and god.

This world is quite fair. Maybe not now, but retribution will come. I truly believed in karma, coz it happens.

Forgive is the noblest revenge, guiltiness is the worst punishment, forever. (How, 2004)

So girls, no matter what...don't be a bitch. really... it sick!

So long...

So long since I've posted up a post. 1 of my friend called me to say, everytime he views my blog, he is number 1 visitor. Should I feel happy or sorry? Happy because he is still concerning about this far-away-long-old-friend. Sorry because I haven't been updating for so long.

Have I forgotten about the reason why I had this blog? Or something else has come up as more important in my life?

Things change....people change....

What remains unchange? I wonder...

I got a very sad news from my family members...not convenient to share it here...but lets pray everything will go on well soon.

There are many times over many things sometimes I feel like crying for.

Here's one I feel weird about....

For taoist there is a practice, after praying our ancestors the food, we have to throw the coins (or others use the thing which i donno called what) to make sure that they have finish and ready so that we can burn the paper money and finish the ceremony.

So yesterday, my family went to pray my father for "chin ming"( I donno whats that call in english, but every year we have to pray our ancestors within the week). I wasn't inform for it, previously, everytime I didn't attend but at least I was informed.

My sister called me and said, no matter how they throw, it just show negative(jus example to represent it). Normally, those(family members) who have not gone to pray, my mum will need to explain why he/she is not present then promise to pray when he/she is back, and my brother(his precious son) will throw the coins only then it will go positive. But my sister said this time, not even my brother work. So my family was kinda desperate and it was very late already. So my sister and family were wondering why.

My sister then kneel down and asked, "is it because your youngest daughter didn't come back that's why you don't want let us finish the ceremony?" It goes positive immediately. (Coincidence you said?). Then my sister called me and on the hp on loudspeaker, asked me to tell my father. I did. They try again...still negative.

*I drop tears*

I asked my sister, "so how now?"

She asked me to look into the sky and pray in the heart. She will call me back in a minute. So I did.

The next call...she asked me, what did you say?

I actually told my dad I am sorry that I couldn;t make it back...I will be back to pray you in 2 weeks time. Please protect me and things like that...It is not their fault for not having me back. Pls don't make them in difficult situation, give them a positive.

After I finished, my sister said, "great...positive already"

:)

I think my dad misses me. I miss you too. I really wish you were here. The kind of support you are able to give us, is the support that nobody in the world could give us.

Pa....wo ai ni. T.T

Newspaper

What I encounter is an experience

07/03/2009

We (3 UTAR students) waited for bus since late 7 evening at the bus stop for bus number U41 Rapid KL beside Times Square. There are many people there mostly consist of malays. The bus came at around 8.45pm but it was too packed. So we waited for another round. Until 9.50pm the bus has not arrived. A young malay boy suddenly talk to us like wanted to quarrel, so my friend(boy) ignore him. That malay boy tap my friend’s shoulder, and after that my friend were being punched in the eye and dragged to the back of the bus stop and continuously beaten by at least 3 malay young men. I called for help but all the malays (around 30) stood by, everybody thought it was just normal fights. Until they have beaten my friend for around 3minutes, all of them ran away. My friend then only told us that they had taken his mobile phone in his pocket. My bag was carried by him was taken too. Inside consist of a camera(Sony T-100, forgot to report), wallet including Identification Card, car and motor license, credit card, atm card, UTAR student card and about RM 20 cash inside.

We had made a police report number THSL/007777/09 at Dang Wangi police station around 10.49pm. After that we sent our friend to Selayang Hospital for his injury.

After we analyze the whole incident, we realize that, the fighting were being purposely created in order to create a chaos situation where they can take advantage of it to steal and rob our belongings. This is because, we did not do anything to stir them up but they act it as if both parties were meant to fight. In between the beating, they took our belongings without us(all the witness of the situation) realizing at all. Until they have ran away, only we know what is really happening.

I have heard that many cases have already happened there with the same tactic. But it is still happening. As a UTARian, Sg Long campus student, that bus stop is the only way for us to take bus back from that area. It is very dangerous for us and thus, I hope that the media can perform their role for the society since the authority did not manage to stop this from happening again and again. I also hope that the authority can take these cases more seriously since it has already happened many times and that place is tourism hotspot. I believe that Malaysians will hope to give tourist a good impression about Malaysia especially on the safety side. I hope to warn all people to be aware of the tactics these people are using and avoid becoming the next victim.

Newspaper cutting :
http://www.sinchew.com.my/node/105275?tid=1

P/s: pls spread this around. Your little effort maybe can help the next victim.

Satisfied

I went to a wholesale shop that sells all kind of hair product. The point is...IM SO SATISFIED n HAPPY n CONTENTED with the money spent!



This acts like a conditioner. But it has better effect coz it regenerates the damage hair and deep penetrated to the core of the hair. It moisturize and creates deal foundation for healthy hair. After shampoo, apply small amount for 30seconds then rinse it.

Leaves your hair fantastically healthy.

From Korea. RM 55 (250g)




This is 'ying yang sui', or vitamin water. After washing spray it onto your hair ends. I've used it for about half the year. My friend love it after she tried, so this one is help her to buy wan.

RM 35 (250ml)





This is hair serum. Its like oil but its not oily. This product comes from Italy. Saloon sell it Rm100 over. Adds more light, shine & softness to every hair type. Linseed Extract and Vitamin E anti-oxident, seal the hair cuticle. Hair will become softer, shinear and more manageable.

Apply 1 or 2 drops after hair wash at the hair ends.

RM 70 (50ml) and RM 50 (30ml)




This is introduced is Beauty Queen show. Chinese call "pong pong fen". Another word, is like hair wax but its in the form of powder. Very natural and not greasy/oily. Can last all day long.

RM 28 (50ml)

Want to buy find me. Price is subject to change. These product usually can only be found in saloon with very expensive prices. If you need to try, find me. Check it out!

Not feeling so good...

I used to cheat myself alot last time during secondary school... Because all people is so fake, they are so afraid on facing the truth...people used to laugh and crack jokes to cover all the fear.

Its been so long since I've been doing it until I forgot it so totally. But today it just came back to my mind...finding the causes of why people say I am so serious and they even afraid of me.

I really used to laugh and laugh and laugh...together with Elaine Teo, SMKA's Interact president also the vice president of Interact Council. During the chinese New Year...she came to my house with another friend, still doing the same thing. Keep laughing at smallest joke possible...

Maybe not me, but most human beings are fake. They only like beautiful things instead of making ugly things beautiful. I should really accept this fact. That people only like the goods and positives...

If you can't fight them, join them!

(I dislike ugly facts about human)

Update from me

Hmm...I had been really busy for the past few weeks....so I gave myself some holidays to rest and to observe cum recognize and evaluate things that has been going on.

Situation are proving me right but guys...I still hope you guys will prove me wrong. Yes, I am speaking about the society that I've resigned but was rejected.

The camp was really successful. But to say it more specifically...again, things are LUCKILY successful. WHY? because everything just hit in place in very last second! Im really glad but things should be done in a better way. Thanks for Mr Ng, after the camp...many people realized alot of things and they said that they are changing. I AM observing the changes....anticipating WHEN the effect of camp will finish... as I said earlier...situation are proving me right...but Im hoping the PEOPLE will prove me wrong.

Changing are not through words but action. Many people can say many things, but how many people can DO IT? Only a few...maybe I've not seen or I've not known, but I see Jamie, Chow Hwa and Diana really transformed. Seng Long, YeeLoon, Aaron is all the while the-okay-ones. (Im talking only about CDS committees)

Haih...

I'm glad that these people really absorbed what we had learnt. For my purpose of doing the camp...Im more than happy. But, for the CDS committees....I am still waiting to see more initiative, more responsible, more commitment, more sacrifice, more support.

Many people don't understand what Im doing. All they do is ask me not to give up...face the problem...trying all their means to speak to me about it. Haih...i hate words sometimes. Empty vessels makes the most noise. Action speaks louder than voice? When we(my vice & me) REALLY REALLY faced big problems, where are the people who told me all these? Hahaha...I really want to laugh speaking of this. Except for my vice chair...nobody have the rights to tell me not to gave up, face the problem...because when problems come...we can't see any shadows!

You guys were SICK, ASSINGMENTS/THESIS, HOMETOWN, etc, etc.

Do we not sick? No thesis? No hometown or what?????

BULLSHITS!
(Yeah~sorry to be mean...but its my blog rite?)

So what do we get in the end? All the blames...

We have no rights to force people...we don't appreciate...this n BLAH

FUCK

sigh

So many things happened to me throughout this few weeks. I am really lost...

I broke up with my bf
I quit CDS
my financial status now on negative digit

I am so alone
I am so lost
I am crying
I am weaker than anyone could imagine
I am acting
I am smiling
I am laughing at myself
I am asking myself to move on
I am struggling
I can't
I wait
I cry
I sleep
I bite my lips so many times
I cannot be like that
I cannot find anybody that are able to help me...

Camp

Just summarize....Success Dynamic Teambuilding & Leadership Camp

1) Initiative
2) Do not just do the minimum
3) Support
4) Energy
5) Change start from yourself
6) Take responsibility
7) Match n mirror - communication
8) Its a great day!
9) Understand the role
10) Vision relate to nobleness then yourself
11) Face your fear
12) Imagine success
13) Appreciate
14) Say positive
15) Talk in a manner that people can't reject you
16) LISTEN
17) Do not assume
18) Don't plan answer before people finish speaking

I will add in if there is more later.... *PHEW* GOOD!

Too tired...learnt and felt terlalu banyak....like going to burst anytime soon. Never had such a great time. Thank you so much for the inspiration Mr Ng. God will surely bless you with long life and your dream to succeed in the course you currently taking. You really changes people's life to become better.