sigh

So many things happened to me throughout this few weeks. I am really lost...

I broke up with my bf
I quit CDS
my financial status now on negative digit

I am so alone
I am so lost
I am crying
I am weaker than anyone could imagine
I am acting
I am smiling
I am laughing at myself
I am asking myself to move on
I am struggling
I can't
I wait
I cry
I sleep
I bite my lips so many times
I cannot be like that
I cannot find anybody that are able to help me...