So long...

So long since I've posted up a post. 1 of my friend called me to say, everytime he views my blog, he is number 1 visitor. Should I feel happy or sorry? Happy because he is still concerning about this far-away-long-old-friend. Sorry because I haven't been updating for so long.

Have I forgotten about the reason why I had this blog? Or something else has come up as more important in my life?

Things change....people change....

What remains unchange? I wonder...

I got a very sad news from my family members...not convenient to share it here...but lets pray everything will go on well soon.

There are many times over many things sometimes I feel like crying for.

Here's one I feel weird about....

For taoist there is a practice, after praying our ancestors the food, we have to throw the coins (or others use the thing which i donno called what) to make sure that they have finish and ready so that we can burn the paper money and finish the ceremony.

So yesterday, my family went to pray my father for "chin ming"( I donno whats that call in english, but every year we have to pray our ancestors within the week). I wasn't inform for it, previously, everytime I didn't attend but at least I was informed.

My sister called me and said, no matter how they throw, it just show negative(jus example to represent it). Normally, those(family members) who have not gone to pray, my mum will need to explain why he/she is not present then promise to pray when he/she is back, and my brother(his precious son) will throw the coins only then it will go positive. But my sister said this time, not even my brother work. So my family was kinda desperate and it was very late already. So my sister and family were wondering why.

My sister then kneel down and asked, "is it because your youngest daughter didn't come back that's why you don't want let us finish the ceremony?" It goes positive immediately. (Coincidence you said?). Then my sister called me and on the hp on loudspeaker, asked me to tell my father. I did. They try again...still negative.

*I drop tears*

I asked my sister, "so how now?"

She asked me to look into the sky and pray in the heart. She will call me back in a minute. So I did.

The next call...she asked me, what did you say?

I actually told my dad I am sorry that I couldn;t make it back...I will be back to pray you in 2 weeks time. Please protect me and things like that...It is not their fault for not having me back. Pls don't make them in difficult situation, give them a positive.

After I finished, my sister said, "great...positive already"

:)

I think my dad misses me. I miss you too. I really wish you were here. The kind of support you are able to give us, is the support that nobody in the world could give us.

Pa....wo ai ni. T.T