Don become a mistress

Keeping a mistress is good. Being a mistress is bad.

(Like i know @@ Like i've become a mistress...muahahaaha)

A mistress is a fair-weather friend! As long as you are sweet, loving, he will be here for you. But as long as you are not, he walk right outside, slam the door wihtout even saying GOODBYE~

If you are a wife, even when you have nothing to give, when you needed him the most, he will go over you, lend you a shoulder and give you a big one hug!

When you are a mistress, as long as you are happy and nice, he loved back. When you are unhappy or upset, he would feel blamed and then argue and distance himself.

A man gives mistress conditional love. Husband gives unconditional love.

If you want to test whether your boyfriend treat you as a mistress or wife, see what he does when you are in painful or difficult times. If, now, he is your bf, he already treat you as a mistress, then you can walk right outside, slam the door and say BYEBYE to him(for goodness sake, we women are better, at least we say byebye)!

IF you say its okay being a mistress, i don't stop you. Maybe 1 day, you will realised why wife is much more compared to mistress around the globe!

Message is : Don't let your boyfriend treat you as a mistress!

Updates

28th Dec - Going up KL ( Staying at Seri Kembangan )
29th Dec - move house, night - velocity KL
30th Dec - no plan yet. Shopping maybe~
31st Dec - Hope to go genting, but nobody bring me...
1st Dec - Sleep at home
2nd Dec - Join my coll mates at Sg long
3rd Dec - Sem 1 kick off a good start!

I had been busying lately. I don't really know what am I busying with. I only know that i ate like nobody business. Fat like this is the fattest I've grew throughout my life!

I'll miss my heater and shower, my Queen size spring mattress, AIR COND, princess life ( no need wash clothes, dishes, find food, have car to drive )

AWWWWWWW...

Abit sad huh?

Never mind, i think i miss my friends :)

ANd the freedom!

SHOPPING ALSO!

heheheee

life is not that bad afterall yeah?

Oh ya, who will be going to velocity KL? Is a music fest, let me know. I need a group of friends to let me join. hehee

In the middle of the road

If you cannot take it, go find for an answer. Is better to kill yourself in the end and let yourself die, than suffering in the middle of the road, letting the car to knock you everytime they passes by; dying slowly.

Rather than you missing someone miserably there alone, let her know, go for everything you can do to gain her back. At least in the end, you know the outcome. 50 years later, you won't be thinking, "if i did this or that, will the result be this and that" "will we be happily ever after..."

Make your life no regrets. If you can't let go, then face the fate bravely and see whether you can overwin fate. Find for an answer.

There is nothing as in the middle of the road but yellow stripes and dead armadillos. The truth is that the most dangerous place to be is in the middle of the road. Many people don't know what they want, but they are very sure that they don't have it! Decide to do something now to make your life better. The choice is yours.

Decide then do it, don't think. If you think you want to do something, you only do it when it is convenient(no obstacle). When you are decisive, you accept no excuses, only result!

"Not what we have, but what we use, Not what we see, but what we choose."

CHEERS!

Merry Christmas!

Change--> Changing--> Changed

This is a cycle. THings kept changing. Before we realises, another change have changed. I was talking with my mum on the car, regarding the heavy rain. Mum was saying, this is the ever 1st time rain strike so heavily and earlier than expected. 2 words caught me. "1st time" and "expected".

If there is no 1st time, will there be 2nd time and forth? Today, is there anything that we can expect?

Today, your boyfriend may be telling you, "I love you forever". Your best friend may tell you, "No matter what happened, how bad we quarreled, I'll help you whenever you need" Your friend may tell you, " i like you so much that I doubt we will even quarrel".

Is there anything as absolute?

I told my mum, "1st time?? hahaha maybe 10 years later, M'sia will have snow too!

Mum said, "impossible"

Caught!

Impossible???? Is there anything as IMPOSSIBLE?

Give it 100 years back, you think our fellow ancestors believe just a square box can communicate with people thousand miles away? then get reply instantly? You think our ancestor believe a small case can capture and print out the image we saw? What will they think if they saw another clone of them standing right in front of their eyes?

(okay~ i know my proof are not strong enough...PLease~~ for the sake of I've already tried very hard to porve nothing is impossible, let me convince you, believe me...)

To be a great winner is to be a survivor. Adapt to change. Take as it comes. Live life cool.

(my 6 years old, felisza's phrase; "cool man!" haha)

Just remember, always darkest before dawn. Sunshine after rain. No matter what, life goes on...so, if you can choose to be happy or sad, why choose to frown?

;)


P/s : My house will be holding a bbq party on christmas eve. Everyone is invited!

FLood~~

Its CHRISTMAS!!! Even East Asia can feel the winter now...

Give 10 years? Maybe Malaysia will have snow too!!

Ladies and gentlemen, Batu Pahat still not in a bad situation YET. Compared to the whole Kota Tinggi is gone, 6 lives killed; 4 in Segamat, 2 in Kluang, with no power supplies...poor thing~

http://www.thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2006/12/22/nation/16396112&sec=nation&focus=1

Just now when i was driving around, Batu Pahat river cannot take anymore water~~~ Places around that area already reach half the metre high. So scary to drive with the woods all down the road...and water just below your leg... BUt say, continue rain for another 2 days? my house will flood also~~~ @@ which never before happen. hehehee I was joking with my mum, " maa, if our house flood, we still can run to 3jie's house" Coz 3rd sis house is up the hill.

Muaaahhahahaa

Im so glad that im still alive and kicking...ehhehe Still sitting down here, with laptop infront of me, wireless provided, food and comfy bed around!

Still manage to get out of the house, watched movie and hang around with friends...


My best best buddies in secondary school...


Still manage to make bras~~


Showing off their art work~


The titanic Ice Cream (8 scoops) Everyone like ghosts come out from 7th month.


And...the mixing part~~hehee


And everyone :):)

A special relationship

***
My nephew says,
Zienal : Ah yi, your leg very thin.
Me : yameh? lao kou (address to my mum) says, ah yi de leg very fat.
Zienal : no ar...i think your leg is long and thin.
Me : Next time you see lao kou, you tell her, ah yi de leg very thin ok?
Zienal : hehehe..Ah yi, last time horr...you are thinner, now you fatter liao.
Me : heheheee
Zienal : Ah yi, last time you pretty you know....now you very cute liao.
Me : uh?
Zienal : last time is pretty...now is cute
Me :OOOoooOOO (does she mean im fat now...thats why from pretty become cute?~~ @@ !!!)

You see...even when a kid wants to tell you, you are fat..she says it in a nice way...

***


I want to share something very precious that I just learned, to everyone.

You may not believe me. Everyone may be telling you. You may have heard this a thousand billions times. But you don't believe it. Just like I once do. Until you feel it so many times, you were still doubting whether you believe them..OR not!

My sister once told me when I were to ask a cousin for help. I was quite reluctant to beg my relative for help because all the while in my mind, I always always dislike asking anyone of my family for help. I would rather ask my friends for help if im given a choice. She came out with a word suddenly that shake my heart and brain..., "can ask relative help, why want to ask friend help".

My brother in law and me straight away say,"nolor...i rather beg friends than beg relatives"

To me, at THAT time, to ask people for help is a favour from them. Friends dare to reject. But relative no(i think). So, adding a gram of dissatisfaction from friends (just in case) is better and easier than adding a gram of dissatisfaction from relatives. Because afterall, friends are friends. Turn face, we are no longer friends. Relatives are relatives. Turn face, we are STILL relatives. :)

One very important thing that i just understand now is, since relatives is a kind of special relationship that forever and ever cannot be washed away by time, why not we see this as an advantage than disadvantage?

A special relationship is like a mother and daughter. How bad is the fued is/are....the anger, hatred, whatever.... 1 day, the forgiveness will be given. The relationship will always ever be...SPECIAL. :)

Time can wash away everything. Just not any special relationship between human and human. How amazing is this?

COnclusion?

Carry on scolding, yelling, shouting, rebelling to your families....cause one very day, they will forgive you and forget it. MuaaahhahaHHAHAHAHahahha

Being a kid...

My nephews from S'pore just came back for holidays. Once, we called them babies. I told my sister when she annouced they were back just now, "lets go visit those babies".... And now, it was like yesterday, they were still babies. 3 of them, 10 years old, 8 years old and 7 years old now. :)

They were so happy when we reached there for a short visit. Im so surprised that after a year(or more) they didn't see me, they still remembered, im their "xiao ah yi" ( small aunt )

Seeing them, I have so many thoughts that cannot be describe. Im puzzled seeing them laughing and being so happy with little actions from their siblings. I can't help but feeling happy listening to their stupid question, laughing to their innocent happiness. Hiding here and there can make them SOOO happy. You tell them stories of believes, they ask you so many logical question to make you doubt your stories. And worse is...you can't scold them or whatever...because their questions are reasonable. Most importantly, you remember they are adorable kids. All you can do, is laugh with them.

Why human can't be so naive and pure after grew up? Truly smile only with our heart? How long haven't a human take off their mask and show our true identity?

Can I be naive like kids and have everyone don't hurt me just like they do?

I've like no childhood life since i were little. Can't remember any. I don't have a barbie dolls or a teddy bear. All I can remember was me crying not to go for kindergarten, then got beaten by my dad badly. All I can remember was me crying for my mum to bring me to her shop, not lefting me alone with the maid feeding me porridge. All I can remember was mum holding a sugar cane forcing me to eat, while I was crying not eating.

Awwww...

I didn't want to make this post sounds bitter.

Can I be so adorable to make everyone likes me like my nephews do?

heheee ;)

(only hippo will treat me as adorable as him...*wink)

You are good or bad

Today when the movie i was watching asked...

"...Ask yourself...are you a good person or a bad person"

There!

Is that everything JUST a good and a bad can be defined in a person? Definately no.

But, in your own dictionary of good and bad, how do you classify yourself?

Answer yourself HONESTLY. To admit either you are good or bad, isn't an easy job.

Because...we have to be responsible only to our own self.

Afterall, we are matured enough to clearly define what is good and what is bad. Have we fulfill all requirements of good OR bad? We know the requirements. Of course we knew.

But, do we do it?
Are we?
Were we?
....
.....
....


Now, I know.. life isn't as simple as good OR bad. It is unfair to judge with only these 2 words. Its unfair. HOWEVERRRRRR good a person is.....there is a bad side of him. AND of course...HOWEVERRRRRR bad a person is....there is a good side of him. So how can we judge?

If I repeat my question and say...

"ASK YOURSELF, are you a good person or a bad person"

"ASK YOURSELF"

I said...we can define good or bad distinctly. So, YOU are the only one who knows what you had done. Your intention, your motives, your purpose, your reason, your thinking, your mindset. The whole picture, you see yourself.

(im biting my lips) ***thinking*** (typing you this...)

It is certainly unfair for stranger (people except yourself) to judge whether you are good or bad. It is certainly, 100% FAIR for you, yourself, who saw the whole big picture, to judge, whether you are good or bad.

**FULL STOP**

Add up all the goods...minus all the bads...
Times all the vegetables...divide all the meats...

Answer this question.

(It is not easy to answer this question HONESTLY AND SERIOUSLY to yourself. I salute those people who dare to answer. It is not easy to admit because we really really really know what is good and bad. )

:)

***My request, read back slowly and think!***

Fried rice

Cooking a good fried rice is easy...SEEMS!

Cook the rice, boil the oil, fry the garlic, carrot and mushroom, then, add the rice and chili padi. Mix with soy souce to the rice. And add all the additional ingredients you want to add. Like vege, hotdog, or any others like.

THats it. Easy?

Frying a rice is simple.

But when to add those ingredient? When the fire should turn biger or smaller....

If timing and heat is not well handled...the rice will turn overcooked. Once it is overcooked, nobody will eat your rice. AND you will have to throw it away.

Certain people may think it will be a waste if we are to throw it away. They ate it. But the taste of overcooked will be there and you can't help feeling uneasy about the bad taste.

I cook fried rice for my family today... :)

Same things go to managing people in life.

Colorgenics

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm

Browsing through my friend's blog and i found this...interesting!

My profile...

You are always alert and keenly observant. You are not truly satisfied with your everyday status and you are seeking fresh avenues which can give you the opportunity to prove your worth. You feel that there are still many barriers that stand between you and recognition - but one by one you will overcome them. Your tenacity is your one good point - like an English Bulldog, once you take the bite, you will seldom let go.

Rejection is what you fear the most and it is this fear that makes you unapproachable. You are looking for acknowledgement and above all looking for people who can appreciate you for who and what you are.It's the time of year that you are apt to become extremely restless and emotionally withdrawn. This is preventing you from becoming deeply involved with a person or persons within your sphere of influence. If you are willing to 'let go' and release your inhibitions you will find that a great deal of physical satisfaction will result, far more than perhaps you even believed you were capable of.

The unwanted situation in which you presently find yourself is causing you considerable stress and frustration and your feeling is that whatever you try to do to remedy this is to no avail. You feel trapped. You want to get away from it all as you feel that you are banging your head against a brick wall getting nowhere. You have turned your aggression inwards and you are furious with yourself for not being able to achieve your goals. You need to go away, somewhere where there are less restrictions and where you can be free to make your own decisions.

You feel utterly wretched - worn out. The demands that other people have been making on you have depleted your strength and stamina. You feel powerless to try to remedy the situation on your own and you are looking for what is hopefully known as 'divine intervention'. But be assured your salvation lies in yourself - you have the ability so use it.

Try 2nd time...

You feel that everything is going against you and you are worn out and exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling. You are trying to protect yourself but at the same time you are hiding your feelings, hoping that by so doing, you can avoid exposing yourself to attack. Hopefully this will give you the chance to get on with your life.

Nevertheless, you should be very careful to try to avoid stirring up any opposition which might endanger your plans:You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding.

You are a perfectionist in everything that you put your hand to. You are demanding and very exacting in the standards you apply to your choice of colleagues and friends -perhaps you demand too much from people. That perfection you seek in a particular person is illusive - perhaps it does not even exist. The unwanted situation in which you presently find yourself is causing you considerable stress and frustration and your feeling is that whatever you try to do to remedy this is to no avail.

You feel trapped. You want to get away from it all as you feel that you are banging your head against a brick wall getting nowhere. You have turned your aggression inwards and you are furious with yourself for not being able to achieve your goals. You need to go away, somewhere where there are less restrictions and where you can be free to make your own decisions.You feel worn out - you have no energy and your depleted vitality has created intolerance for any further stimulation. You feel inadequate and this subjects you to agitation, irritation and acute distress from which you try to escape by refusing further direct participation. You have become very wary and cautious but you have an inner strength. You have that determination to get your own way and succeed in the end.

Both have their points that i think is right...

Says who I can't bake a cake?

Do it like a pro! From today onwards, i can proudly shout at people

"I KNOW HOW TO BAKE CAKE OKAY?"

Come on laa...all anybody needs, is a recipe book!!! GOSH, WHAT SO DIFFICULT TO BAKE A CAKE???? DUUHHH~~~

Bake cake~~

LIKE THAT ONLY MAARR... CEHHH...SO EASY~~

THe recipe said...beat until its creamy...How creamy is creamy?


I hate to do this the most! THe flour keep spilling all over...and it takes freaking a long to do it 3 times!


Eee....use hand 1, YUCKS...My hand so butter-ish~~

bEFORE~

TAAAAAAADDDDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.......

Ladies and gentlemen, my Family Nestum Cake....

***I never know cake is so fattening until i make it. YOu know, this cake consist of 20% sugar, 30% butter, 15% flour, 15% nestum, 20% egg. Please love you health and don't ask me bake cake okay? --->>this is for ROn...muaaahahahahhhahahahaha

Fight!

To win something, understand them.

Assume you are your opponent. Put yourself in their shoes. Understand their situation. And think what will you do, if you are the opponent. Then, knowing what your opponent will do, fight them there.

Being a great winner is being unpredictable. If your opponent assume you wrongly, meaning he can't understand you, its hard for them to count your next move. And therefore, they can't easily win over you.

Everywhere, in business, friendship, relationship, war, family, everywhere...

Is about winning or losing. I don't believe there is any win-win solution. Surely, either side must sacrifice a little bit for another to create a "win-win" which is a little bit lose and a little bit win solution.

I had always love to talk with people. Through communicating, I get to understand more people. The way every kind of people use their brain to think. FOr me, its interesting to understand people and fight them, then win of course when im given a chance to.

This makes A type of friends think, "why you mix with nerdys?"
B type of friends think, "why you mix with ah bengs?"
C type think "why you mix with smarty?"
D think "why you mix with night owl?"

Some are as bad as gangsters...some are as good as "mummy's baby".

It makes me see different part of the world. Different types of lifestyle. Different forced to make them so. Also, i see that stepping on different types of shoes, there is a reason for it. GOod or bad.

"If you can't win them, join them" Quoted from 1 of my commenter. This is the sly-est way.

A few photos...

Cam Whoring..

Actually it was supposed to be at Kicthen 21, too bad its closed. So we went to Country Home Taste.

THe loveliest couple...as ever...

HEhee...

We went Mariyam after secret recipe chase us out. Nolaa~ their waiters were friendly.

Amazingly...we talked to our secondary teacher until 12.30++ am rite...

Fact vs Believe

When fact vs believe, who will win?

believe : To accept as true or real.
fact : Knowledge or information based on real occurrences.

TO me, believe wins EVERYTHING.

See! Human have not a single prove, the existing of god. YET, we can end our life, sacrificing for god (last time). Now, people spend thousands a year buying joss stick, paper money. People pray up to 5 times a day believing god will hear them. THe feng shui, the taboo in forest, the ghost, the traditional medicine...

WHat is all these? BELIEVE!

FACT is, there is still no hard prove to show that all these thing exist. But (life always full of but), we believe them.

Believe can be a motivation...ALSO, it can ruin a person's life.

I always always believe things people don't. It motivates me, and people around me. Regarding this, I've done things people think impossible. My achievements? One of the example.. making up a camp in 2 days, including finding participants, renting place to stay, planning activities, food and permission from headmistress with letters, etc etc (Interact Club at the age of 17)...BUT (again), at the same time, my believes discourage me. I believe in "there is a will there is a way"

BUT(again) when there is no way...because sometimes facts are facts. Example, you cannot marry your father. So, when things couldn't turn out like i wanted it to be...I can't sleep, I don't know what to do. I don't want to surrender. I know, fact is there. But my believe take over. So Im lost.

Life is about enjoying the journey. We said this when we win. BUT (again) WHen we lose, hahah, we say, why must it happen?


Life is full of BUT. BEcause life considered many direction point of view. Every 1 degree cannot be regarded as incorrect.

Indeed?

Im happy but sad.
Im strong but weak.
Im laughing but crying.
Im glad but dismay.
Im energized but tired.
Im positive but negative.
Im rational but emotional.
Im love but hate.
Im brave but afraid.
Im winning but losing.

haha

Thus, those feeling are what I am feeling. Which one do you BELIEVE?