Intention

When you want to blast out your angriness to someone who had just said something horrible...

THINK

of the intention.

As long as the intention was good, cares not about how hurtful the words are. Just take the advice,

think about the caring and forget about the hurting words.

DON blast your angriness out.

THINK more on the intention...

Then, tell yourself, he/she meant good and 1 more friend is better than 1 more enemy.

*deep breathe*

Mumblings

After long time of struggling, decision has been made. Confession here is, im single already.. again? hahaha

Didn't change my friendster's status because i don feel like being disturbed by anybody so far...not that im not friendly..but people get interested with you purely due to your look, it kinda pissed me a little. I am(perhaps was) happy with my current status...BUT all of a sudden...i felt empty and lonely LOL

ignores me saying that..

Feeling is kind of heavy now...maybe too many days I had been quarantine at home, since Friday. This is a bit weird for me. My upside down time too, makes my life weirdy...I slept at 5sth yesterday...and guess what I did in that wee hours? BATH...

Many things happened since I came up to KL. I need a little time to digest and get sufficient of nutriens out of it. Before I got myself sick.

Nothing much I can say here...so till then, CHEERS.

1 more step to hell

Can u imagine u just made someone almost died?

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How are you going to face his parents?

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Yourself?

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Carry on living in this world facing all the blames...(MAY BE no ppl blame you, but you automatically will feel it rite?)

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Yesterday we just sent someone to General Hospital...and according to him(later) the medical report says, his heart stop beating for 3 minutes, they jolt him up while resuscitate him...luckily, he was saved.


Im at most sincere sorry for the happening.

University Life

Not that i want to complain about my Uni...but u see yourself how troublesome it is.





So this is what happen today..


Never mind about the sun blazzzing just above our brains...but the lift is pack like this..


Never mind about the lift, we are young, so we can take stairs to 7th floor...and it is like in this condition...


Lecture hall like this, note that the lecturer is blocking more than half of the screen...


Even until 4pm, the lobby is pack like this...


Miraclely our 2 lengcais follow the rules...As for the girls...rule are meant to be broken. HAHA More than half of the lecture hall wore formal attire...LOL

Names were jotted down at the entrance for those whose slogan is "rules are meant to be broken" but i told my friend just pura-pura like you jot down your name, then go in. So our names wasn't there...HIAK HIAK HIAK

Its my mistake

I was browsing through the testimonials people wrote for me. And i stop at vivien's one. Saying that there is nothing we can't talk about. Then, i realise that the 3 best friends, me, vivien and Kelvin...there seems to be alot that we can't talk about already...

So, automatically...i am repent-ing....thinking why.

I found my answer.

Sometimes i think, whenever im very close to someone, i tend to act emotionally. And therefore, its hard for me to accept things that i think not right happening to them. Somehow then, I will talk to them, if they don't listen, advise them, if they don't listen, scold them, if they don't listen, threathen them, if they don;t listen....im left without knowing what happened next.

They are tired of explaining...im tired of listening to their excuses...

I thought something bad is just bad...after I really did a lot of thinking, maybe there are many things that cannot be explained behind closed door...

This occurs to Kelvin. Until i see him with my own eyes that he is smoking. Vivien was in the middle of us both. She tried hard to tell me to accept the fact as she already did. I struggle a little. And today, now, maybe i don give a damn anymore..or maybe im trying to be more acceptive..so that i won't be left without knowing what happened next.

Should I care less about people? Its a question mark.

I actually caught him smoking already...but he just don't admit it. That day, when we almost quarreled about this issue, he said he didn't want to admit because he didn't want to explain having to know that i will not accept any excuses.

Well, that is kinda true. I seems to be too stubborn in this issue. Afterall, who cares? haha

I will be more understanding...promised!

Maison

Risking myself to be killed..i decided to post up the pictures that i personally think...errr....more appropriate to be publish here..err...many sensoredother insane one like kissing and hugging pictures...if i post it up, den err..most likely u guys won't be able to see me again...

So...here they are..last thursday we went to Maison, thanks to edward, we got the vip place upstairs..(I didn't know my place is so near to KL, we only take around 25 minutes to reach...MIRACLELY..)



The friendship is built with Dewar's 12 years..


2 people die under this fellow's hand. She super know how to make people drunk LORR...i also almost die..can u imagine we almost french kiss???? MY GOWD...luckily i turn my head and avoid for like 30 secs...STILL she gave up. Hugs were okay laa..


3 jars of long island...thank you guys!



He is a nice guy!!!


The girls...


EVERYONE! (some people is not in the picture...)

This is the 1st time i went to maison on thursday..comments?Its a ladies night so the place goes too crowded till no space for you to dance. Everyone was like pushing each other sweatily... But still, all in all it was an enjoyable night with these fellows...1st time club with my mates...they were great. We shall go together again soon... ;)

Sad

The pros and cons. Advantages and disadvantages. Everything has it. To be independant is good. But sometimes, when you are too independant, you don't need much friends anymore. You need not somebody to take care of you...and therefore, less communication with people made you someone a loner.

SIGH

You can't have fun coz you are too responsible that you need to make sure everyone is in piece. You keep worying that something might goes wrong...I suddenly felt my life is so tiring. Unfinished stuff to do. In another way, its good because at least its occupied.

Im making a big decision,
considering and
lets hope i won't regret.
I donno how am i going to start
or how am i going to stop.
all i know is i can't go on anymore
this is not a place for me
Not anymore
Not anymore
Not anymore
No more
So shall i start?
or shall i stop?
am confused
am lost
I donno what to do..
please tell me
I donno how am i going to start
or how am i going to stop.
But i know i can't stay here anymore
this is not a place for me...
no more
not anymore
not anymore
not anymore

TO the hell, everybody. CHEERS!

This place has undescribe-able words of nice-nest. I can't help but feeling human is tiny, world is big when i was watching it together with my friends. But when u spread your arms..you seems to be able to hold the world. I can't help but feeling life is beautiful when you see this kind of scenery. With stars above...is a perfect place to talk all your sorrow out. This place is located at hulu langat. Very very very secluded place.

Note : pls go in a big group. Its kinda eerie journey there and i seriously regreted until we reach the place. Everything worth it.


Two thumbs up for this place. We stand there for half and hour, appreaciating the beauty of life. I was asking vivien, why this place is not developed...bla..should build a place to eat, carparks...selling stuff...then a friend of ours said, he will sell condoms. HAHAH...I say, should build up an inn or something(got bed enough), vivien say, yeah...make it whole piece glass..so that you can make baby while enjoying the view, looking at the stars...

Says me, if this really happen(make baby part), everything is worth it. The petrol oil(is a journey, abt 40 minutes from my place), time, money(for paying the inn) and efforts.... I will die here happily doing it with the people i love. Hahaha

Our lectures

This evening, we went to lecture...


And it ended up like this...(to show that i am a good student, got bring dog tag!)



U see them like so rajin, 1 concentrating, 1 jotting down notes?


The truth behind it...



15 minutes later...


In the end, when the lecture decided to give us a break, because everyone already start to doze off...we decided to sneak out, and say byebye.

We then went to e-cen to catch others we didn't at all attend the lectures..haha

Glowing in the DArk

Was talking about sex and condom, kisses with my mates few days ago.

I still find oral sex unacceptable larr...don't ask me why. I think its er xin okay? Both my pals were telling me its okay...Its fair that female do it to male and male do to female. But i just tak boleh tak boleh tak boleh laa...I don't expect my hubby to do it to me also lorr~~ In fact, thinking of somebody doing THAT to me, already makes me feel eerrie...


Kises, i wondered can somebody kiss somebody(a stranger) like that when they are drunk. Its been many many times, guys asked for kisses from people when they are drunk or high? A few guys approached me before, but so far I still think its ridiculous laarr...Am I abnbormal? Again, my pals told me, its alright worr...

Maybe I should try drink really really really alot, and see if I can do it eh?

And the funniest...glowing in the dark condom. I tot it wasn't safe? they say safe?

OKay, she says, its funny to wear glowing in the dark C, with the lights off. What will you see? Imagine~

I can see you, I can't see you, I can see you, I can't see you again...

If you donno what I mean, i donno how to explain.

Anyway, i never thought of that until she told me. Pretty funny eh?

I like this picture alot! She is sweet, agree?


We went to the mamak at genting. Super hard to find but the place is kinda special becoz it opens till midnight and a place where you can buy lower cost food. Its a nice place to hang around...dind't take alot of pictures coz it was way too cold and i didn't bring any jacket.(hehee)

We were so sleepy by 2sth in the morning. Then, walk around and decided to head home. I drive vivien's car back because that pig is just too lazy and scared and tired. ERmmm....due to the reason that i am quite tired also( yeahhh tired) so...I kinda sped A LITTLE. And mana tahu~~ the police caught me red handed when i intend to overtook a car, only to find that in front got road block. DAMN!

I was so angry...


Police : tahu apa sal tak?

me : pandu laju lorr

police : sekarang macam mana? Gambar sudah kena tangkap...( I SERIOSULY don think any picture were TAKEN!!!!!)

me : Tak tahu laa...sorry laa, kita student...bagi satu chance, boleh?

police : saya nak bagi 1 chacne, tapi gambar sudah tangkap macam mana? Sudah ada

evidence. Tak bleh delete. Sekarang macam ini, saya pun nak tolong kamu student. Tapi saya tak nak keluar duit sendiri. Saya pun kena bagi duit kat itu orang, suruh dia delete itu gambar.

me: berapa?

police : rm50

me : tak ada laa...u buka saman.
(vivien was shocked to hell!)

police : kalau I buka saman, mungkin you kena pergi mahkamah, bayar rm300.

me : tak apa, u buka saman.
(vivien was so scared until, when the police took out the pen and saman paper(dono real or not) she said...)

vivien : murah sikit laa...kita tak ada begitu banyak laa...baru turun dari genting. Sudah tak ada wang...

police : habis you ada berapa?
I took out my wallet...all rm 50 notes with a few ringgit..took out that few ringgit~~

me : eh, i left like this(show my money) you all got or not?

vivien : take out rm30..(show the police( kita ada macam ini aje)

police : bolehlah...ambil itu merah saje..
(and so...he took all the red colour notes..)

me : takkan tak tinggal sikit untuk kite? habis macam mana kita nak balik nanti? tak payah bayar tol ke?
(then he gave back rm10)


STUPID MALAYSIAN POLICE!

later, right after we pass the police, vivien remembered that her maid's bf is a police. He can settle any saman as long as the saman hand to him immediately.

StupiD VIVIEN. sO ANGRY. Seriously if wasn't that im driving vivien's car, i would have ignore that farking police. I don think got photo in the 1st place. AND rasuah a police is not my wind laaarrr~~ GRRR

Sleepy days..

Sorry for lack of updates. Busy and tired. I am officially like a zombie now. FAT ZOMBIE! Its been like 3 weeks of not enough sleep.

I know I am fat already, my fellow lovely mates kept asking me to eat somemore. I donno why they just like to make people miserable...and so, they decided to call me for supper whenever possible having to know that i'll surely be there if i have no other activty. (HELL, this means i am going to be fatter @@)

Here are few pictures..

THe farewell BBQ party at Shirley's place. The chicken wings were as hard as rock~

CaM wHOrING~


Couples~


Triples (hehehe okay, very lame...)


and....THE GIRLS!!


Everyone. teehee



A hyper boring night at mamak!

I was suppose to go somewhere that night, but it ended up back fired thanks to someone (:p) So, i spent my night looking at my housemate and my housemate stare back at me. Gossiping in msn right behind of the SOMEBODY so that we WILL NOT MAKE NOISE. Later then, we decided we cannot take the boringness anymore, and so, we call up the guys, who had just finished dota to yumcha. Carmen, our facilitator cum senior of the telematch, who lived just upstair of my house came too. (phew)

boring~


Sleepy~


Tired~

Amazingly, we sit at the mamak, and talked until about 3-4 sth i suppose.

Be a survivor!

Rules number 1:
Adapt to the environment. Don't expect to be adapted. ( Am i using the correct way to express? Find people, don't expect to be found....correct rite?)

Anyway...to be a great survivor..you have to change with the environment flows. That makes me goes well with people I want to go well with. Unless I don give a damn about that particular person, whether he/she likes me or not, i don't care~ I adapt to them and im proud that i goes well with most of the people i know. No one is perfect okay?

For EXAMPLE:
Living in the house of 6, if the other 5 sleep at 1am ( FOR EXAMPLE ), you don't expect everyone to keep quiet after 9pm, because you are sleeping at 9! Seriously, this is "TERLALU lebih lebih" rite?

Stop making everyone dislike you. We don't want to discriminate people. But everyone should be respected with their difference. And since the majority wins, who should adapt to who?

Well, as a higher class housemates we are ( the other 5), we had been trying our best these few days, to talk as softly, politely, nicely, sweetly, ACT as how girls should talk in the living room, which is erm....(looking at the distance)...7metres away from HER room. It happens that today, a senior of ours came to our house(our facilitator for telematch), sitting here and talked, and THAT GIRL asked her roomate to tell us to lower our voice.

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ITs f@rking irritating LORR~~~~!!!

1st 1st, she don't give us a little bit of face mer?? Afterall, we will face each other everyday LERRR(tak mau pun tak boleh @@). A guest is here...and she asked us to lower our voice? I swear we wasn't like shouting, we were only (only!) talking in a normal voice.... and she not only donno how to give face to us, she don give face to the guest also...making us feeling kinda embarass(spell wrong, who cares, AM ANGRY)

OPpsssSSs...this is 1 of my example only rite?

CHILL!!

In the test, or exam, giving examples will add marks. It doens't mean that that example is REAL.... or unreal.

I AM NOT POINTING MY FINGERS ON ANYBODY UNLESS YOU THINK YOU ARE THAT PERSON

HIak hiak HIAK (evil laugh!)

I am not writing on anybody. SERIOUSLY, am NOT. But if you think I am writing about you, your friend or somebody, change then! Disgrace me, and verify me wrong, I don't mind. Prove to me you are elegant, prove to me you are polite, prove to me you are cultured, show me you are dignified with fine qualities.

(GOod morning everybody...Im off to sleep..)

Mixed up everything together

New YEar Eve at The Curve, very very evry nice 10 minutes fireworks!



1st day at Utar.



Today, we went to a mamak, together with the new group of friends we met during the telematch. Being the champion, we were lucky enough, because 12 turn up out of 13. And 4 new friends they bring over...we exchange mail and number.


IT was great.





WHen our group of friends have nothing better to do, we mix up all the leftover food, and challenge each other to eat. The rules is like that, girl eat 1 scoop, guys eat 2 scopes. Then, the 2nd round we will add up more "er xin" stuff, until one vomit. We once did this at Sunway piramid buffet dinner. Until somebody vomit, still we gave up.

I ate 2 scoops of those. Well, is mix of 3 types of tosai kuah, cofee, ice lemon tea, limau kasturi, fried rice, mee siam, toufu,, cucumber, cili souce, fried chicken, cili padis...and i cant remember...

AND I SWEAR!!! IT tasted SUCKS. Its sour!! LIke ()#*$&^@ spoil food..

aNYWAY, we didn't play further because last time, we manage to made everyone tried the "food". This time, because they are all still new to us, we don't want to scared people away...hehehe


The group photo we took after winning the telematch!

Been very very busy in UTar. Utar sg long sucks. Mic spoil, lecture hall sucks with pillars everyway, blocking our vision...and projecter so damn far and small. I can't hear the lecturer, I can't see the board. TOday was the 1st day and the lecurer were all so far, SUCKS!

UTAR management system is like shit. I went to pass up a form today. We went there, crowded long queue, and the fellow say, need photostate offer letter.Never mind We photostated downstaris...lift were spoiled so we took stairs. 2nd time we went, queue again, when reach us he says, need to photostate bill also. tHE 3rd time, we just throw to that guy without letting him check. God bless!

Then, went to 3rd floor, climb all the way, to take picture for ID. Today is the 1st day of Uni reopening, and they are telling us that today IS the last day. With like 60 people queueing....And supposingly, in the notice board they write close at 8pm, rest at 1pm. 2 o clock, the counter is close. We went to lecture. Sneak out at 3.30pm. Queue reaches 70 ppl, we waited for exactly 2hours! DAMN IT. And worse thing is...they let all the guys to take picture 1st! DAMN IRRITATING.

So many damn hours wasted~~

Tired...good nite.

Life too hectic

Finally, after so many days, i got some rest today. This week has been busy, interesting but tiring. All the day, i slept less than 5hours. In a week time. Now that im in Sg Long, taking Business Accounting, staying at Cypress Condo. It is a nice place, very homely feel. If there is flaws, then it will be, the house is too big. Donno why, since small, i don't like a big house. It makes you feel empty. PLUS, chances of meeting other members will be lesen; talk less also.
Bigger house = more personal space = not good relationship.

SOMEMORE hard to keep clean...hehhee Cypress is not until that big anyway~

Everyone is welcome to visit my place. Now that only 3 of us in the house...(the others haven't move in) the house is kinda quiet. hmmm....Im will be alone in the house over the weekend. Not scary. Its good for me to have some personal space at this comfortable place. I can have a good rest then. :)

Afterall, it was a much comfy house compared to Genting Kelang; the place i stayed last time. Only thing is, to get out of Sg long through here, is kinda hard unless you have car. Public transport is limited.

Today, went for the orientation for Ice breaking. We were lucky enough to won as champions...winning 6 games out of 10! Most of us were determine and had a good team spirit. Well, you can't expect everything to be perfect. Of course there are some guys and girls in the group that didn't cooperate, not steady.

Afterall. we won alot of prizes. It was a happy day although i personally think the design of the game isn't good enough. The ice didn't really break. Coz all the while, we were fighting with the same group. Meaning, we didn't face other groups also~~ ITs kinda unfair and not strategic laaa~~ (I miss interact club, organizing games and making fun of people~~hehee)

Finally, Uni started. Am happy and excited to go through all the obstacles together with friends!

Anyhow, Uni life just started, I am already sick. Flu, caugh, and now with terrible sore throat after the telematch this morning. hahaa