This is the real 1st time I tasted such a Monday Blues...
I woke up with not enough sleep, with a horrible horrible nightmare, pressed my alarm snooze for i think more than 5 times. Then, I was to carry a laptop, pile of books and my own bag to Uni. Supposed to ask the bf to carry for me. Who knows he got ready late, my class was 10. And I have a proposal to photostate before going to Uni. Also today we have to wear formal.
After he got ready, he called me and asked if I were ready, while I had been sitting there waiting for so long. Then he said, meet at guard house. That means I will need to carry those stuff, with high heels till the guard house. I was so pissed off with a tired body already.
Never mind i was late. So i reach Uni, he promised to photostate that proposal for me. The guard stop me, saying what i wore wasn't formal. Totally pissed off...I seriously feel like hentam-ing someone already.
Then bf got a way, he said walk through basement and I manage to go into Uni. Went to class...and we had an english class doing what u guess? COPYING lecture slide. (&^%&%#@( I came out from the hall after taking attendance. Went to had my breakfast. And my breakfast happily dirty my super white pants.
Then went for another class. Air cond fucking spoiled. It was so stuffy all the while at lobby, toilet all the whole queing. I tell you, today i tahan my kencing until so teruk for more than 8 times. I run to toilet that kind.
Go lecture, kena scolded again...by the crazy lecturer coz she said no air cond must find somebody to scold.
Then we had an event meeting. With downstair at lobby bing bang bing bang. Finally the meeting finish, after taking dinner, I went home and bath. That was already late 9pm. I am buzier than a working woman.
I remembered I have assignment to finish, the tutor want it by tmr. Installed the program and tried to do it. I can't do. Arrange all the notes that are jus given, I injured my finger. The staple got into my finger. Most of the subjects now is totally blank. My studies was steps behind people. I gave up on it for tonight.
I was fucking shit tired, try to sleep. and just when I almost slept, the vice chairman called to talk. After that I woke up already can't sleep. Then the bf ask if I wanna go supper. I agreed. Then go.
Then the chairman called me to be there, urgent. I told him I am at mamak, food already ordered. He sounded disatisfy although I already told him I will be there asap. Bf not happy with it coz its already 12 midnight. This too affect my mood.
Reached there, I called the chair, he said he is there, but I can't see him, and I am so pissed off that he can't stand up and waive of sth like that. Never mind, we met at last. Den what is his urgent matter is 1 sentence that actually he can just said it on phone.
Seriously pissed. Then I tried to follow up on what had happened. Sth went wrong and I lost my patience.
Today was a real bad day. I am so so so so so so so tired mentally. Suddenly, I missed the peace life. Where I have nothing to do in hand except yum cha and clubbing.
Tomorrow my day is from 10am - 10pm again. I feel so restless. Give me a break. I need a restA
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Saturday, January 19, 2008
The Art of talking
I wanted to write this since long ago, but nothing great can come out. Lets try!
When you talk more trying to achieve something, you will realize, how you made people FEEL is the thing. First, you have to be clear, what is your position now in the conversation, and what you want to achieve in the end.
Who is the boss now? From there, you either act like a boss, or you act like you are NOT the boss. Coz eventually, people will know what is the situation itself. Not convincing?
When you are at school talking to teacher, he/she is the boss. Although he said, "can you pls help me to do......?" The, "can you pls..?" is acting like he is not a boss, but he is the boss. Coz you are not able to reject.
When you are dealing with a hotel manager, looking for a venue, NOW you are the boss(although you are student at school), but the position now is different, coz you are giving them money to earn, you are their customer. Yes, they may have many other customers rather than you student, but that will depends on how you speak, your power in speaking, the feeling that you give to the manager.
A cooperate manager that are confident they have plenty millions to book the hotel, they too are same position as you students, both are customers. Both book 100tables for 1 million(lets say). So the hotel will have same profits. Depends on how you deal with the manager. You don't tell me the hotel will make special discount for you all because you are student. Out of 10 maybe 1 hotel will. Others won't!
Twisting and turning the way you said things can make you realize different effects. Try it. But don't overdo it. I believe people do not take things that are too perfect. One fact we cannot deny is that, human ARE selfish. When you wanted to do something, there are of coz SOMETHING beneficial to your own when you are doing it. At the right time, tell them what is the thing. Coz nothing is perfect, and human are selfish, therefore human are allowed to be selfish when the selfishness is acceptable + in a deep desperation.
Well, my something beneficial to your own may not be harmful, so maybe selfish is not the word, but I can't think of any words to replace it.
Some people just do not care the importance of words they use. A "please", "may I", "can you" can means so much different. There are many others, but I can't name it all. The concept is that, is not the words that makes the difference, is the FEELING of your words that can bring to the person you are talking to. How your words make people feel, is the overall conclusion people make in you.
Besides that, repeating good things and don't mention too many times bad things is a nice feeling you can bring to people. Human are forgetful. Very forgetful. They need to be reminded so that good things are remembered and vice versa. Well, you can don't believe it. Try this, tell your girl/boy friend, "I love you" repeatedly 10 times everyday. He/she obviously knows you love him/her. But it is the psychology effects that will make him/her more happy.
Yes, is all psychology. I find all these VERY interesting. Still discovering, still learning. ;)
Whoever that thinks there is a better way, or anything that is very wrong, I open my heart to let you convince me wrong. You are welcome. I love this kind of discussion, lets improve ourself. Don't stop here.
When you talk more trying to achieve something, you will realize, how you made people FEEL is the thing. First, you have to be clear, what is your position now in the conversation, and what you want to achieve in the end.
Who is the boss now? From there, you either act like a boss, or you act like you are NOT the boss. Coz eventually, people will know what is the situation itself. Not convincing?
When you are at school talking to teacher, he/she is the boss. Although he said, "can you pls help me to do......?" The, "can you pls..?" is acting like he is not a boss, but he is the boss. Coz you are not able to reject.
When you are dealing with a hotel manager, looking for a venue, NOW you are the boss(although you are student at school), but the position now is different, coz you are giving them money to earn, you are their customer. Yes, they may have many other customers rather than you student, but that will depends on how you speak, your power in speaking, the feeling that you give to the manager.
A cooperate manager that are confident they have plenty millions to book the hotel, they too are same position as you students, both are customers. Both book 100tables for 1 million(lets say). So the hotel will have same profits. Depends on how you deal with the manager. You don't tell me the hotel will make special discount for you all because you are student. Out of 10 maybe 1 hotel will. Others won't!
Twisting and turning the way you said things can make you realize different effects. Try it. But don't overdo it. I believe people do not take things that are too perfect. One fact we cannot deny is that, human ARE selfish. When you wanted to do something, there are of coz SOMETHING beneficial to your own when you are doing it. At the right time, tell them what is the thing. Coz nothing is perfect, and human are selfish, therefore human are allowed to be selfish when the selfishness is acceptable + in a deep desperation.
Well, my something beneficial to your own may not be harmful, so maybe selfish is not the word, but I can't think of any words to replace it.
Some people just do not care the importance of words they use. A "please", "may I", "can you" can means so much different. There are many others, but I can't name it all. The concept is that, is not the words that makes the difference, is the FEELING of your words that can bring to the person you are talking to. How your words make people feel, is the overall conclusion people make in you.
Besides that, repeating good things and don't mention too many times bad things is a nice feeling you can bring to people. Human are forgetful. Very forgetful. They need to be reminded so that good things are remembered and vice versa. Well, you can don't believe it. Try this, tell your girl/boy friend, "I love you" repeatedly 10 times everyday. He/she obviously knows you love him/her. But it is the psychology effects that will make him/her more happy.
Yes, is all psychology. I find all these VERY interesting. Still discovering, still learning. ;)
Whoever that thinks there is a better way, or anything that is very wrong, I open my heart to let you convince me wrong. You are welcome. I love this kind of discussion, lets improve ourself. Don't stop here.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Honesty
Something very wrong happened in the event we are hosting, but I don't know and I can't explain it here. Suddenly I thought of an example that is also happened recently on me, which I think pretty much same situation. Able to make people digest.
Yes, honesty is the best policy.
There is one day in Uni, I forgot the Utar's policy that we are not allowed to go into the campus wearing sleeveless. So happened that another society is selling t-shirt and they display it inside, so my friend gave me the display shirt to call it for a day.
It just happened that that day I went for blood donation....and I fainted wearing the shirt (OMG, do I have to say this?) . I dirtied the clothes while somebody fed me milo.
The problem is that, the t-shirt need to be sold. But its dirty. So I was very guilty, suggest to them that I bought that t-shirt although I already have one. They said no need, just take it back to wash. After washing, the shirt looks new.
Here are the question....do we have to tell our customer that, this clothes was dirtied before when they didn't realize? Or we just keep quiet, if they didn't realize then we just sell it like any other shirt?
Coz is already clean now, and its brand new. Just that it is washed but without a clue of it. If they didn't complain, means they accept. Means the case is close...rite?
Funny thing is, in the event, bad things like that happened. When everyone kept quiet, I was told to bring the issue back again and get their consensus, 1 by 1.... Funny or not?
When I disagree...I am being said as being dishonest, and somebody said behind me, that I am trying to cheat the whole committee, covering the truth....while actually we already told them the whole truth, resign if they do not agree. Nobody resign...and SOMEBODY mean, I can't take that as they already agreed....
I am not being rude. But people whom think them as right, I think they are naive, and stupid. I really can't see why must we bring out the issue AGAIN, and GET THEIR CONSENSUS 1 BY 1. Hey, this is business world la.
Yes, honesty is the best policy.
There is one day in Uni, I forgot the Utar's policy that we are not allowed to go into the campus wearing sleeveless. So happened that another society is selling t-shirt and they display it inside, so my friend gave me the display shirt to call it for a day.
It just happened that that day I went for blood donation....and I fainted wearing the shirt (OMG, do I have to say this?) . I dirtied the clothes while somebody fed me milo.
The problem is that, the t-shirt need to be sold. But its dirty. So I was very guilty, suggest to them that I bought that t-shirt although I already have one. They said no need, just take it back to wash. After washing, the shirt looks new.
Here are the question....do we have to tell our customer that, this clothes was dirtied before when they didn't realize? Or we just keep quiet, if they didn't realize then we just sell it like any other shirt?
Coz is already clean now, and its brand new. Just that it is washed but without a clue of it. If they didn't complain, means they accept. Means the case is close...rite?
Funny thing is, in the event, bad things like that happened. When everyone kept quiet, I was told to bring the issue back again and get their consensus, 1 by 1.... Funny or not?
When I disagree...I am being said as being dishonest, and somebody said behind me, that I am trying to cheat the whole committee, covering the truth....while actually we already told them the whole truth, resign if they do not agree. Nobody resign...and SOMEBODY mean, I can't take that as they already agreed....
I am not being rude. But people whom think them as right, I think they are naive, and stupid. I really can't see why must we bring out the issue AGAIN, and GET THEIR CONSENSUS 1 BY 1. Hey, this is business world la.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Reaching a goal
This few weeks are spent so worth-able. Yes, I am so busy that I hardly have time, and I look so stress up most of the time. But everything that I've learnt worth ever lasting.
So you see when I spend the time to draw this out, it meant that this lesson is so important.
The cross is the goal that I want to reach. Lets say we have 2 people here. The right 1 is me, left is somebody who is going to assist me in achieving my goal(or our goal).
So as a leader, I think you should not walk directly to the inner most front. This will not give people a chance to step forward, and you won't reach your goal. And worse, dissatisfaction comes in between partners.
Reach an understanding, guilty, responsibility will do the work itself, so that he/she will come forward themself. This is where believe comes in. You will need to believe a person in your team, about responsibility, guilty and understanding. Give people a chance to step forward , contribute something to reach a goal.
Sometimes your believes in people will push work to be done faster than scolding and losing your temper which at the end, it will only comes to a ending of quarreling.
I donno whether anyone can understand the message I am trying to convey. In short, is about stopping at the right step, to let people move forward on their own. Try to put it in a situation maybe you will understand better. Chew it, digest, and practice it. :)
So you see when I spend the time to draw this out, it meant that this lesson is so important.
The cross is the goal that I want to reach. Lets say we have 2 people here. The right 1 is me, left is somebody who is going to assist me in achieving my goal(or our goal).
So as a leader, I think you should not walk directly to the inner most front. This will not give people a chance to step forward, and you won't reach your goal. And worse, dissatisfaction comes in between partners.
Reach an understanding, guilty, responsibility will do the work itself, so that he/she will come forward themself. This is where believe comes in. You will need to believe a person in your team, about responsibility, guilty and understanding. Give people a chance to step forward , contribute something to reach a goal.
Sometimes your believes in people will push work to be done faster than scolding and losing your temper which at the end, it will only comes to a ending of quarreling.
I donno whether anyone can understand the message I am trying to convey. In short, is about stopping at the right step, to let people move forward on their own. Try to put it in a situation maybe you will understand better. Chew it, digest, and practice it. :)
Sunday, January 06, 2008
The Unexplainable
There are certain time, people have the kind of impression on you, once you spoke something that might meant that way...even when you do not mean that way...they made the conclusion that you meant that way...even it is not, even when you explain, it will seems so fake...so there is no point of doing it.
He gave me a flower just now. I was on deep concentration reading kennysia. I was happy when he gave me until I donno how to react. I am not joking that i seldom receive flower, especially in front of so many people. I only receive 3 times in my life of 20 years. And 2 times is when I was singing on stage, 1 time is the florist delivered to me. So I never have to react. Maybe partly i was reading kennysia. I remembered i stun for a while, acting that im reading kenny all because i dind't know what to do....so in the end...i didn't react. Just continue reading.
A friend of ours who seen the whole happening then voice up. He said, "weird la...u have no reaction want hor?" "are you a girl or not?"
Then, he said, "don't say...she want face....don't say already...", in a very confidence, hard tone.
I think he convinced everybody, so that become a conclusion.
Another guy said, "nien ke yi tang fan chi ma?"
I didn't say anything, except smiling.
I donno what to say. And I was actually doubting whether I am. I hate doubting myself when I didn't mean any tiny of it pun.
I am not angry at all. I am very sad. Disappointed. Sad to the extend that I have a feeling of crying. Its bad enough not being believed, it is worse not being understand...worse even not being able to explain...the worst of it is I actually doubt myself. I have nothing to say. Whatever people like to think of me. ITs ok. :)
They just don't understand.
At times like this, I will think of you. He that never fails to believe my intention. You are always in my mind. You know who you are.
He gave me a flower just now. I was on deep concentration reading kennysia. I was happy when he gave me until I donno how to react. I am not joking that i seldom receive flower, especially in front of so many people. I only receive 3 times in my life of 20 years. And 2 times is when I was singing on stage, 1 time is the florist delivered to me. So I never have to react. Maybe partly i was reading kennysia. I remembered i stun for a while, acting that im reading kenny all because i dind't know what to do....so in the end...i didn't react. Just continue reading.
A friend of ours who seen the whole happening then voice up. He said, "weird la...u have no reaction want hor?" "are you a girl or not?"
Then, he said, "don't say...she want face....don't say already...", in a very confidence, hard tone.
I think he convinced everybody, so that become a conclusion.
Another guy said, "nien ke yi tang fan chi ma?"
I didn't say anything, except smiling.
I donno what to say. And I was actually doubting whether I am. I hate doubting myself when I didn't mean any tiny of it pun.
I am not angry at all. I am very sad. Disappointed. Sad to the extend that I have a feeling of crying. Its bad enough not being believed, it is worse not being understand...worse even not being able to explain...the worst of it is I actually doubt myself. I have nothing to say. Whatever people like to think of me. ITs ok. :)
They just don't understand.
At times like this, I will think of you. He that never fails to believe my intention. You are always in my mind. You know who you are.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
Flash back
Ehh~ Just when i was mentioning at my last post about how good 2006 were, I read back the entries and started to realize 1 thing...
I'VE FREAKING LOST THE SENSE OF SHARING, EXPLAINING...
Actually I've noticed this for quite sometime. Man, is it I am now old or what? I don't seems to have interest in blogging anymore...
I read back on 1 of my post, saying life is all about sharing...if not then what is the meaning of life~ And it suddenly gave myself a 5 fingers on my face. Coz recently, I am so not into sharing, I keep most of the thing within myself...I don dare to risk somebody will understand me by purely assuming nobody will.
GOSH~ WHAT HAPPENED? HOW COME?
At some moment, I was thinking perhaps 2007 was not a good year, so confidence were kinda low...thats how it happened. But does confidence really make such a huge variance?
I wonder @@
So this is the 1st day of 2008. Lets pray for positive.
I am so quiet nowadays, its so unlike me. I lost my craziness....last time dahlah sangat serious, tapi ada moment of crazy...NOW? all the while serious.
I so very dislike this me!
OKlar..ciaoz. Happy New Year friends! Thanks for reading.
I'VE FREAKING LOST THE SENSE OF SHARING, EXPLAINING...
Actually I've noticed this for quite sometime. Man, is it I am now old or what? I don't seems to have interest in blogging anymore...
I read back on 1 of my post, saying life is all about sharing...if not then what is the meaning of life~ And it suddenly gave myself a 5 fingers on my face. Coz recently, I am so not into sharing, I keep most of the thing within myself...I don dare to risk somebody will understand me by purely assuming nobody will.
GOSH~ WHAT HAPPENED? HOW COME?
At some moment, I was thinking perhaps 2007 was not a good year, so confidence were kinda low...thats how it happened. But does confidence really make such a huge variance?
I wonder @@
So this is the 1st day of 2008. Lets pray for positive.
I am so quiet nowadays, its so unlike me. I lost my craziness....last time dahlah sangat serious, tapi ada moment of crazy...NOW? all the while serious.
I so very dislike this me!
OKlar..ciaoz. Happy New Year friends! Thanks for reading.
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