man

I woke up this morning, somebody told me he have something urgent important thing to tell me. It was kinda weird and worrying....imagine early morning, somebody told you this. Like is so serious. I ask him what? He told me to go n open my door.

I open my door with this(breakfast)....
Hanging there...

My heart actually pumps very fast. I don't think I deserve such a thing first of all. No people will do such a thing with the intention, as he said, its his dream to make me smile. No matter in the end how it will turn out, he just wanna carry out his dream to make it true.

This is so crazy isn't it?

Tell me all this is just some guys' trick I had always believe...

I told him, and guess what he say? I can have my lifetime to test him sincere.


Crazy~



Update: Another surprise by cute Jamie...


haha...damn cute!


And this is the "flaming lamborgini" on my birthday~

Still here

Its not that I am lost in the jungle. I was too busy with assingments, I slept on average 3-4 hours this week. And Friday morning I headed back here(BP). Abit busy with family and I just straighten my hair. Deadly tired and wireless is not very good here in my room.


Photos as promised!

Happy 21st birthday to myself!

:) hippo is asleep, I got back at 2am, he still haven't got the chance to wish me. Aw~!

I really had fun. I am truly touched. And I am very happy.

Friendship is a real real complicated things isn't it? It is definately not something you can define with time. Today, I went to sing k with a few of my fellow classmate. Just as I was singing k, another group of my friends were busying buying all the stuffs for my birthday party. It sounds so easy, but, they prepared everything, borrowed me their house, clean their whole house before and after...and they prepared every everything including bbq-ing.

Isn't it so amazing?

Most of my friends came. celebrated. And I drank a cup of self-made flaming lamborgini, using Absolute Vodka and Sparkling Ribena. Photos will be uploaded some other time. I was smashed with cakes for so many times until I sit on the floor, defenseless.

The most wonderful thing is after everything ended, when 12am arrived. They(those who borrowed-me-their-house-and-prepare-the-party) sing continuous birthday songs for around 20 minutes all together along with the guitar. Started with normal birthday, then birthday song 1st-line-only continuous for like 10 times. and then last line and then with all kind of language including hokkien and indian and some I donno what. If I could record down the moment, that would be a very valuable scene in my life.

THen we started some game with losers drinking the absolute vodka. AND THEN, the guys started to get crazy and making loves bite for everybody. Damn funny lor...they had the video of it. I will get it from them some time and perhaps post it here.

I think this is my most wonderful birhtday so far. I donno what can be said. Just thank you, and I love all of you guys alot alot alot.

For those who attended, thanks for making it. Sorry for I think I didn't serve a well hospitality.

For those who called and sms... thank you for remembering me.

I will write more details on the birthday soon. Really tired. But damn happy! :)))))

When are we going casino? :P:P

Im feeling great

Its 2.20am now, connection still sucks, I really am supposed to be sleeping now coz its already the end of my "holiday", and I really wish to write some feelings, so here am I.

First of all, I am really touched and I am glad. The dawn had arrived, currently I am so happy and contented with my life and I don't wish to do anything for a change. I had never feel so contented and I thought this feelings would never come across me. I had always complain that life to me its unfair, people don't understand me this and so. But now, with so many good friends around...nothing seems very big anymore.

Hm...I just watched batman, I didn't like the ending. The whole movie was talking about proving the good values in people but in the end, the best man turned bad. How sad is this? Isn't heroes movie supposed to give hope to people? @@

Oh yeah, initially I wanted to write about our life being all framed up, told to me by anoh yesterday. And just happened that I read Nicholas blog, about friendship. There was once we had very good friends, then when the time comes, we would be forced to be apart...then we are forced to accept new friends...and the circle goes on and on. We had no choice but to follow all that is arranged. Besides friendship, there are many other things being set up, waiting for us to fall into it. Its like the rules of life. Good or bad will depends on which angle you want to see the thing from. As said before, if things were made to be....why see it bad instead of good? Why wanna choose to be sad instead of being appreciative? Don't question, accept with an open heart! Ronald used to say, "everything happens for a reason". I think, everything happens for a good reason.

The most important thing is, quoted from Lavin, "appreciate what you have..."

GAMBATE!

SRC ceremony

Eh, i just realized I had been staying at home for the WHOLE week!!! Thats a record...haha

Erm, I went to PJ for the SRC ceremony this morning. Was real tired due to lack of sleep for days, rushing assignment, midterm and meetings...I am glad my group mates were helpful during last minute. Unlike some other group in my class, last day come out with nothing, donno how to do and promised it done but nothing came out. I really pity them, looking at their helpless-almost-crying face in the lab.

Back to the ceremony, although I was very tired, I listen to the Utar's president speech and some thoughts rendered me. Can't really remember well, but he said, all of us who were leaders there sometimes will have to do lots of things under constraint. Being a matured professional adults and leaders, many things have to be done on a matter of fair judgment. Many people may not understand many silent obligations that we ought to follow, and because we cannot satisfy everybody so the utmost important thing is, he reminded us to do for good as a whole. Not doing things to be liked, to be just popular among people or for the position sake, or for beautifying our resume.

It is not totally a waste of time, somehow we mingle with a few of other leaders where experience are shared although not many. I don't deny that my heart vibrates seeing them going up the stage thinking the what ifs. But no matter what, there is always pros and cons. I still think (although very doubtful) I made a good decision.

Next week, 2 assingments due. The peak of the peak week(this week) had gone. *celebrates*

I WANT TO WATCH BATMAN!

So happy

*JUMP* *JUMP* *JUMP* *JUMP* *JUMP* *JUMP*

I got the contacts of Mr Ng Thian Watt, a vice president of Malaysian Association of Professional Speakers, the irector of Training and Education of Napoleon Hill Association Malaysia and member of Mind Science Association to come as a programmer for our upcoming CDS Leadership and team building camp.

He is going to carry out activities for 2 days ( he will send to me the flow this Wednesday), and through the activity make us learn something about leadership and teambuilding.

He is such a nice person man! Haih, finally something really meaningful has been done for the CDS member. Something i think worth to be a member of. Something I deep inside think its so beneficial to the students.

Thank god.

Yet another busy week

1 midterm
3 assignments due
2 meetings

Let me deal with it smoothly alone.
Do not disturb.

In need of some peace.

Mission Accomplish

To make the story short, I was drunk yesterday at Maison. I think, to be drunk is a matter of you want it or not. You may not agree with me. When you don't want to get drunk, you will control the amount you drink...and even if you are so high, you try very hard to control yourself. So I told people whom I think will be able to take care of me, that I am going to get drunk...and I drink it like I drink water, making very sure I get really drunk this time...So they did. Thanks Kok Kheong and Kelvin. KK is a total contrast of Kelvin...haha I won't forget he keep begging me to stop drinking..and Kelvin gave me more glasses when I told him I am not yet drunk. When people, I mean I, want to get drunk....she really drink everything that people gave her...I lost track of what I drank, chivas, barcardi apple, tequila shot, and pepsi. LOL...I knew I cried very hard, but I could not find a reason why I cried...Funny rite? I must have scared people crying there standing alone, rejecting everybody and kept wanting Kelvin. Making everybody thought we were on something. Pls la....I just thought he and KK are my best friends and if Kelvin was drunk which always happened, KK will be the most fittable person to take care of me.

I still can sms people in the end what...maybe not drunk enough yeh?

Anar anar...I know what you guys are going to say...don't nag me ok? I seldom get myself like that, so pls....I knew it hurts my health. Im just crazy la. Once in a while, LET ME BE! thank you. bluerkS

Exam

I have very hard audit paper tomorrow. I am so lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy to study. My friend went to watch "wanted" the movie I had been PESTERING MY FRIENDS TO WATCH!!!!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRRRRRR

I rejected them on MOnday, but I am dead regret now coz they keep showing off with ME. TULAN!!!!

Inexperience is a factor not an excuse

Nobody is born with experience. Its harder to start from 0, but we learn while failing until you gain the experience. You can't say you are inexperience so you do nothing and wait for people to do something. Yes its slow and troublesome and frusfrating keep failing but isn't that better than sitting back and wait? The gold won't drop from the sky, be a do-er. If people are willing to give you this 1st chance, why you don't give yourself a chance? Is like fresh graduates go out finding job...company want to hire you, you tell them you are inexperience therefore you dare not take the job. So you sit there forever until you gain experience ok?

I am so so busy this week and the internet is playing hide and seek with me.

DISLIKE sarcsm

Anyone read Xiaxue? I had been following her blog for years by now. Never really like her coz I think she is really bitchy. YET, something kept me into her, that I never understand. I had to agree that she is a slut, but there are just something inside her that is so attractive. I mean, that is why 20000 over people from all over the world view her blog per day isn't it?

Yesterday, she wrote about Dawn Yang(another famous blogger) which the media always like to compare both of them. Personally I think, they are really different style of blogger, hmm, which is to say, I don't really browse Dawn's blog. Although Xiaxue hasn't upload as frequent as possible, I still wait for her entry.

I just found out what I admired about her.

Hm.... Yes she is bitchy, she always complains and criticise alot about people. But 1 thing about her is that, all her words, at least from a reader(me) point of view, I think I can trust her words that is sincere, truly from the bottom of her hearts. She said it when she likes something and when she did not like it, she will not TRY to like it and say she likes it. Although this theory is very simple...but many people just fail to perform it. When you are not up to SO good, just admit it. It is not a very beautiful fact, but SO WHAT? Nobody is perfect, people have long ago accepted this. Hiding the flaws is just being so sarcastic, like people will not sense/doubt is it fake.

I know I am not convincing.

I think this is the reason why she is so famous and people read her blog. Coz her words in the blog is reliable. Nothing could buy a fake word from her. For that, I salute her courage. Coz no matter how she got slam by the media with everyone watching, being assulted at in the public by passerby, she continues being determine for that principle. That makes her a full time blogger, makes her advertisement in her blog worth few Ks, makes me think she is a successful 24 years old bitch.

Update: I just realize that xiaxue was forced to put down the entry coz Dawn is gonna sue her~~ haha and she was forced to apologized, but made more careful statements to bang her. I know they have got nothing better to do, but they are freaking full time bloggers, so thats what they are supposed to be doing. YeaH~ its just so funny to witness the cyberwars...