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She is one of the society's chairman. From the very 1st day, when I went into the "welcoming bash", I not jokingly doesn't look good on her JUST by the way she gave her speech. I am not trying thinking so highly on myself. But i was the president for Interact, and deputy for council. I do not dare to say I am good, I can say am I slightly more experience coz I have seen alot and alot of leader.

I doubted...how can she become a chairman when days were gone. Deep in my heart, I believe people chose her for a reason. and yet, I can't figure out. Alot of people under her are better compared to her. But....I was waiting patiently for an answer to come, none.

Again and again, she prove I was right. Today writing this, I am not afraid that she might come across this. I think a good leader will have to face the comments bravely, not blaming but to THINK! whether the comments make any sense.

I was her "shadow comm" sounds bad. I donno whose idea, but that was suppose to be something to be PROUD of as the society's member. When we were informed to meeting, we were most of the time being shoot, scolded at. Regardless of how much we have contributed, no recognization was given, we were there for meeting basically just to listen to their decision. Bad things, we were ALL scolded, good things, i think we haven't been praise, do we?

2 weeks ago, she said, "this time the shadow comm is so bad, all didn't want to attend meeting, I think I am blind chosing you all as shadow comm"

today she said, "then if u guys are not committed then y u all came n join shadow comm?bull crap so muc but cant do anything"

She never ask herself, why people chose others as priorities, rather than attending her meeting.

We had been her shadow comm for almost 1 year by now. Previously, we were not given a chance to handle a proper position. I tell you, I feel not trusted.

To me, its ok whether the people is experience or not. Nobody are born with experience. As long as he is willing to learn, sacrifice and interested. Having said to this, an example...you willing to have a kid that is genius, but very lazy...or you prefer a kid that is stupid, but willing and eager to learn?

Then, slowly...interested in holding event people, get involve in other societies, coz they provide us better chance and appreciate us more. I myself felt that we are given better exposure and challenges there.

So eventually, we shifted outside. UNtil today, when they gave us a place as a moderator, I am now so busy becoming as a treasurer in another event until I can't handle the position she gave me, as a moderator.

Saying this, I am not underestimating the position as a moderator. In fact, I can't handle that position...I got to admit this.

Stop crapping me about "heart" in that particular society. Face the world girl, this is a reality. People who are interested in doing event are ambitious. Ambitious people when using in a right way will be a useful right hand man or a good leader. Ambitious people cannot wait for a year, when they are offered better offers, for your small positions.

Today, she said, "since all shadow comm are not committed..."

If this is only pointing at me, or the rest who responsibility for messing up the forum, then its alright. But she is saying ALL. GIRL, you don't put the blame on everybody, when problems occurs.

GIRL, you are definately not so naive to expect everything to turn out smooth, for an event to happen. GIRLS, we make event to learn to solve problems. Especially problems that are not expected and you were given a very very limited time frame to settle it.

We learn this so that when we were working next time, we are calm, we can think, we are able to solve the problems without getting sack, or bearing the-can-be-avoided consequences. GIRL, in Uni, this is a free lesson for us.

In the real working situation, we were always being challenge the impossible. Your customer force you to give a lowest price, with limited time for goods to be done. Your boss give you limited budget and perfect work. If you can't, then you are out. The world does not only have only you 1 supplier nor you 1 worker. You don't challenge, you don't grab, then you lost.

I hope somebody grab something from this entry. THanks for reading.