Fireworks II

This time is on Merdeka Eve, and its by Japan...

Its mesmerizing..I eww and aww most of the time. During the work, I step back behind(not exaggerating)....the ball stays on the sky for like more than 3 seconds, and it falls slowly...it seems like really gonna fall and burn you...I step back...and then I was laughing at myself...(luckily none of my friends realized~~)











During the ending, my camera can't fit the screen....imagine how big is that...I've never seen such a nice fireworks in my entire life. And I bet I won't have many chance in future to see this kind of captivating work.

Its a good competition. We enjoyed...



Pic with myself...Happy birthday Malaysia!

(I took 3 hours+ to update this post!!! @@ 7.20am now!)

Die la

2 more weeks is my final. My brain refuse to cooperate, and my heart wanting-to-concentrate level is very low. It fails to convince the brain to work, and it is being dominated by the brain.

Both don't wanna study....

Im so demotivated, I am so lazy for everything....at this moment, I don't want anything...nothing is important anymore....

All my brain want is sleep. Coz I can't go out, i will feel guilty somehow. Whats the different anyway? It just refuse to study.

My brain is closed, even if i sit down there, reminding myself to concentrate, I read a sentence and only the sentence goes inside, then came out. Meaning not understood. When this happen(it happened everytime) then when I start doing question, 3/4 of the question i will not know how to do. Then I will claim its very hard.

Anybody can tell me what should I do?

I tried to identify the problem. In the begining i thought it is because of my improper sleeping time. Very hardly day before yesterday, I turn it back. It don't work.

Then today, I thought maybe is because of my empty tummy. 1 day 1 meal for th past 2 days due to improper sleeping time.

TOday, i ate 3 meals. Now, it still don't work.

Tell me whats wrong? Im getting pissed...

My brain is like dead!!!!!!!!!!! It closed!!!!!!! GRRRRRr

Fireworks

Yeap, I went to watch fireworks, by Italy this time...All the way to Putrajaya @@


Look at the amount of people, getting their camera ready...

And the journey pays off...










Picture with friends...
Wohoo...i had video 20 minutes on the fireworks...but saddening issue is, the file is too big. Youtube can only accept 100mb, while the file is like 500mb. Sad sad....the video is freaking nice!

I try to upload it here...donno whether it works..




Anyway, while i said i was going to be busy studying....I read this. Hahaaa Its just simply irresistable~~

Winning by losing

Many times during arguments, we run away out of objectives and argue for winning. Its normal. Most of the human want their dignity. When we were threatened by somebody better than us, we want to prove we are better instead. We closed our mind on listening comments, we want to convince the other party that our way is also okay...

Once he/she is convinced, we felt satisfaction, achievements and in another way, we won the fight.

However during the process, nasty arguments occurs. Relationship were harmed.

If we can win by losing out first, agreed with the other party, let him/her have their dignity, then try to persuade him/her to consider also your opinion, other alternatives, why not? If he/she is wise, and his/her dignity is given, she won. But if you step back and look at the overall picture, perhaps you will win. Probably she will try your way and it is achieved happily without hurting the relationship.

When a person wanted to win so much, you let the person win by not fighting. He/she will felt meaningless winning. Therefore he/she will feel meaningless fighting over nothing.

1 hand claps no sound!

Survive the way you like

African kids have no food to eat, diseases everywhere.
They are living.
Bill Gates is able to enjoy every luxuries he sees.
He is living.
Somebody out there suffers kidney problem, he/she needs machine to survive every 3 times a week. They are suffering so much.
Yet, they are living.
Babies lie on the bed, sleeping, shitting, eating.
They are living.
How many thousands hundreds people lose their loves one every day.
They are still living.


If you can be happy now, why sad?
If you can love, why hate?
If you can cherish what you have, why complain?
If you can smile now, why frown?
If you can stand up after a fall, why remain on the bottom?
If you can succeed, why do nothing?
If you can look forward, why not?

You can't choose your life, but you CAN choose how you gonna lead your life.

Achievements-Responsibility

Achievements come after responsibility. Responsibilities come after achievements. You agree with this?

We talk about the negative first...
There is 1 of your colleague that has not much responsibility. She only work within her job and probably didn't perform her job well. WHY? BEcause she thinks,

"got me no me, the project will still run, the company will still earn money and most importantly, my pay will still be the same.

Cause the responsibility is not fully given, or passed down.

Without me, somebody else will handle it for me. I am not reliable because there is somebody i can rely on.

Even if i work out of my square, or now, conveniently and easily i work inside my square, the cycle will still be the same; project still run, company earn money, pay still same. BUT I can be more relax. So why making my head bigger when i already have family to take care, kids to raise...etc?"

Therefore it is concluded that achievements is not felt.

No achievements, no motivation and no motivation leads to no responsibility.

POSITIVE :
Today this project is handled to me. If I didn't work out of my square(for eg : working on Sunday), my team will not be able to perform WITHOUT ME. Then, we will not be able to satisfied the buyer(that comes on Sunday) and....what will happen then? OMG, we(because of I) will lose the buyer...the company will lose $1 million. GOSH~ no no, I have to go.

Responsibility is caught.

If I don't work out of my square, "no me, project don't run, company earns lesser money"

-end-

Not everyone is filled with responsibility in nature. Maybe you are, but you cannot expect everyone to be the same as you. HOW to stimulate the responsibility?

Observe human behavior and reactions and study management.

What I think now:
Dealing with irresponsible people, dig out their responsibility by failing 1 project. Teach them a lesson by hitting them with a "because you are not here, or because you are not performing, the whole project failed!". Make them feel the guilt, dig out their responsibility.

Then, stimulate more responsibilities out from them through achievements.

Yes, is a risk and is a lost by failing 1 project. But i believe long run is more important. If your company can change an attitude of a worker, in future that worker can earn much more money for you, and by making him change, he will appreciate the company more, therefore he will probably stays with the company even other company hires him with higher pay.

Furthermore, company that manage to create better workers, if known, good workers will fight to join your company.

THere!

Something big happened in batu pahat this week. My mum purposely called and asked me, have I heard from your friends? She told me a very very very horrifying things~~

THere was this girl, being pilled by her friends in a VIP's room in a night ktv, and she took off all her clothes, naked, and then....

(I bet she donno what she was doing) she finger herself!

Her friends (guys), got really excited and high, pull out her finger and fingered her.

Worst thing is, its all videod and being spread around.

My mum said, those subordinate at my dad's working place told her, that this girl is very pretty, got really big boobs....ANDDD she actually got lots of hair around her thigh...

As if the hit is not enough...

He told my mum, yesterday he was at the pub. Somebody then show him the video...and at THEY(those bastards) at the pub, watching on the phone, as if not shiok enough, they put it in the projecter with wide big screen, and they watch it openly together with everyone in the pub.

I wonder how she and her family gonna face the society...

THose guys are so bastard rite?

Come to think of it, these thing(finger here n finger there) happened to so so many people. SHe is just being so unlucky and not careful that she is being pilled and videod... Now, everyone is discriminating her...

Imagine that accident happened to your daughter man!

Now the video is still being continuously spread around. My teacher from secondary school asked me whether I wan to watch. Out of curiousity I actually asked her to send me, but she didn't know how to send. Thinking of whats the use of watching it, I forget the idea right away.

To those who had the video, have a heart, please delete it after you kill your curiosity. Imagine this happened to your daughter!

Have a heart. Fill the society with love and care.

Noob/ A dream

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This afternoon, i was being awaken by my tears...

After 10 years my father passed away, i think this is less than the 3rd time i dream about him.

When i asked my mum why, my sister always dream of my dad, telling her to take good care of us(me n my bro), she said coz we were only 9 and 12 years old back... somehow he felt so guilty.

Mum said, dad will not dare to face us coz he left us with all the heavy burden. We were still too small at that time...

When i was dreaming about him just now, he stand there looking at me while i was crying...

I think he missed me after so long... :) But he donno what to say to me coz he was still very guilty. So he just stand there, see me a few glance. Coz he just didn't know what right thing he can say to make me feel better...

I once told him in my heart when my family was in a big big big mess years after he died...that i will never forgive him, cause if wasn't because he died, we won't be facing so many problems...

I donno...maybe those words just come out when i was so emotional...I think he can avoid the accident...and not die.

I am glad that he comes to see me. I've long forgotten how to call pa...I miss him. I wish I can see him again, not crying but telling him i'm doing fine and all the incidents build a stronger me.

Maybe i shall accept the fact and let bygones be bygones.

I love you, pa.

Like holidays

Last week, i gave myself a big BIG BIIGGGG holiday. i skipped almost all the class...yes, i said ALL...i only went for 1 tutorial class...don't ask me why...War have break, I was too tired for the past weeks, and chinese have a saying , direct translation, "rest is to walk even further".


So I am applying that saying...


I brought a group of friends to Hulu Langat. Its still so fantastic ever, but the food at Look Out Point wasn't that nice anymore~ (SADDENING)




Clubbing at Maison. The last time i went was on January, the time when i drive my friend to General hospital and he almost died. Wearing this same red spag @@. Got a bit phobia of that place d...

I think this picture looks nice.

Last week, we also had Ballroom dance workshop in Uni, where i was 1 of the facilitator.


YEAP YEAP, weeks before i was busying learning the steps from the studio, just to teach 100 crowds, coz the 2 tutors can't manage such big crowd.



We actually managed to sell off all the tickets in the 1st day itself, which is unexpectedly overwhelming response.



During the weekends, we went to Port Dickson...

I love forest~~


Tell me, Im not the only weird sole that thinks these mushrooms are cute!

After that, we dropped by for lunch at donno-wat-seafood restaurant...THe food are not bad, and its extremely cheap.

Guess what I was eating?


GotchA! Crabbing~
We ordered sotongs, crabs, chicken and vege...only cost RM 61 for 5 person! Finger licking good~

The damage...


Finally, on the way back...All of us were so tired, I almost fell asleep in the car. We enjoyed the trip, but not Bani's singing.. EW~~~ frankly, kinda irritating...

(I steal some of the picture from MunYee)

Behind the scene of Clubbing

Club brings to the perceptions of bad, i think it seldom brings anyone to think that clubbing is good. Maybe on the ratio of 2:8.

I've started clubbing more than a year ago. Been to so many clubs, my goal is to explore all the clubs exist.

Throughout each visits, something new is learnt, new experienced, new angle of seeing things.

Nothing comes free. Girls don't pay to club, you let touched(molest). Or any words you like to call it. Or if you are pretty, and wear sexily, you treat them eat sugar for their eyes.



You don't mess with people, people come to mess with you. You can sit quietly at the corner. But you can't take your eyes off your cup. You won't know when, your cups will have additional things inside. And next thing you know, tomorrow you are on the bed in the hotel beside a man.

Yes, friendship is built.
Couples are made.

The most important.. girls are cheated!

1 guy who was an ex clubber told me...

You bring a girl to club. Make her high by alcohol. Then bring her home and have sex. At that time, both are doing it willingly. Tomorrow pretend nothing happened, because both of you were drunk. And nobody is to be blamed on.

WHY NOT?

For males, they don't lose anything what!? Seriously, even though im a girl, for this, I have to agree with the guys. WHY NOT?



Girls, club is not a simple place. Its definately not a place for innocent girls.

For the guys, I see people get drunk.



I drive people to hospital because he vomits white bubbles and his eyes turns up. He was sent to emergency room, heart stop beating for 3 minutes. He was alcohol poisoned. Drink too much i supposed...

Luckily he was saved.


Clubbing is a place where everybody knows it can never be too good.

But why are we still going?

Teenagers are stubborn...we think we won't let influence...as long as we don't mess around with people, we control the amount we drink, we mix only with our friends...nothing bad can happen.

But as time pass by, as you see more and more of these, determination are something easily challenged. Its a matter of time, my friend.