辛福

Was reading the last post....I really felt Im so blessed. God actually loves me so much in another way. Yes, things were always taken away for me, thats to make me even stronger n tougher. But when bad things happened, my friends are always always there for me. You guys know who u are...I posted that I have no appetite in fb, the next day, sms keeps coming from all over, to ask if im alright... I felt so paiseh making people worry. But I did keep my promise. I try my best to eat as much as I can.

Then people start wild guessing that because of the broken relationship, I was too depressed thats why that happens...BUT HEYY!!!! I can confirm its not. Coz Im really feeling so happy n contented now. So pls, stop making a reason for me. Its not larr.

This time, things were great because family are all fully on my back. I felt so loved, I felt so full in life these days...What more could I ask for in life? This is what I had always been dreaming about...

Too GOod To be True

The last time i felt something was too good to be true...was when my brother adopted me as his sister...at the time when sth was horribly bad happened on me...when i felt no love..when i have nothing at all to offer. I didn't believe his sincerity, I doubted and I think that was impossible to happen...n he said he will 1 day make me believe that, life can be good. People can be sincere. And love is around...

Without knowingly, 2 years later, he really showed me, someone a stranger can actually treat u good all the time wihtout asking anything for return...without condition...He gave me lots of brotherly love...

I was touched.

This week...it happened again..though another case.

I hope things goes the same. Im really happy for the time being. :) Hope 2 years later...I will be posting "Too GOod To be True Part 2"

:)

Decision

I stand on a fence for too long, its dragging and its expanding...so I made up my mind yesterday.

Our friends that read my blog, me and Yeong Hann had ended our relationship.

I asked my friends, after 2 years you said its not suitable, is that an excuse?

She told me no, coz it takes time to understand each other and find out what you want. I was very cruel to drag this long, sorry. I was really afraid that I would regret. But today, I realized that if we continue on dragging, I would surely regret and divorce 10 years later. So better make it now. Don't waste time.

When I told my mum n sister about it, they totally supported me. I feel so good about that. Supports from my family is kinda hard to get. My family also thinks that we would ended up like this sooner or later, and my mum told me that we are just not suitable for each other. She knew it after a few times I brought him back.

I hope he is alright. To our friends in KL, pls if you are able to, help me take care of him. I think he needs companion especially these few days. He deserves someone better. Its lame to say this shit, I felt. After hurting others, we always give ourself many excuses.

All I can say is, I am sorry.