Update from me

Hmm...I had been really busy for the past few weeks....so I gave myself some holidays to rest and to observe cum recognize and evaluate things that has been going on.

Situation are proving me right but guys...I still hope you guys will prove me wrong. Yes, I am speaking about the society that I've resigned but was rejected.

The camp was really successful. But to say it more specifically...again, things are LUCKILY successful. WHY? because everything just hit in place in very last second! Im really glad but things should be done in a better way. Thanks for Mr Ng, after the camp...many people realized alot of things and they said that they are changing. I AM observing the changes....anticipating WHEN the effect of camp will finish... as I said earlier...situation are proving me right...but Im hoping the PEOPLE will prove me wrong.

Changing are not through words but action. Many people can say many things, but how many people can DO IT? Only a few...maybe I've not seen or I've not known, but I see Jamie, Chow Hwa and Diana really transformed. Seng Long, YeeLoon, Aaron is all the while the-okay-ones. (Im talking only about CDS committees)

Haih...

I'm glad that these people really absorbed what we had learnt. For my purpose of doing the camp...Im more than happy. But, for the CDS committees....I am still waiting to see more initiative, more responsible, more commitment, more sacrifice, more support.

Many people don't understand what Im doing. All they do is ask me not to give up...face the problem...trying all their means to speak to me about it. Haih...i hate words sometimes. Empty vessels makes the most noise. Action speaks louder than voice? When we(my vice & me) REALLY REALLY faced big problems, where are the people who told me all these? Hahaha...I really want to laugh speaking of this. Except for my vice chair...nobody have the rights to tell me not to gave up, face the problem...because when problems come...we can't see any shadows!

You guys were SICK, ASSINGMENTS/THESIS, HOMETOWN, etc, etc.

Do we not sick? No thesis? No hometown or what?????

BULLSHITS!
(Yeah~sorry to be mean...but its my blog rite?)

So what do we get in the end? All the blames...

We have no rights to force people...we don't appreciate...this n BLAH

FUCK

sigh

So many things happened to me throughout this few weeks. I am really lost...

I broke up with my bf
I quit CDS
my financial status now on negative digit

I am so alone
I am so lost
I am crying
I am weaker than anyone could imagine
I am acting
I am smiling
I am laughing at myself
I am asking myself to move on
I am struggling
I can't
I wait
I cry
I sleep
I bite my lips so many times
I cannot be like that
I cannot find anybody that are able to help me...

Camp

Just summarize....Success Dynamic Teambuilding & Leadership Camp

1) Initiative
2) Do not just do the minimum
3) Support
4) Energy
5) Change start from yourself
6) Take responsibility
7) Match n mirror - communication
8) Its a great day!
9) Understand the role
10) Vision relate to nobleness then yourself
11) Face your fear
12) Imagine success
13) Appreciate
14) Say positive
15) Talk in a manner that people can't reject you
16) LISTEN
17) Do not assume
18) Don't plan answer before people finish speaking

I will add in if there is more later.... *PHEW* GOOD!

Too tired...learnt and felt terlalu banyak....like going to burst anytime soon. Never had such a great time. Thank you so much for the inspiration Mr Ng. God will surely bless you with long life and your dream to succeed in the course you currently taking. You really changes people's life to become better.