Friends when I am down, believe in me

Cheryl says (11:57 PM):
until now i still not sure if i will regret
-Nicholas: says (11:57 PM):
sounds like changed alot
Cheryl says (11:57 PM):
yeap
life dream changed
-Nicholas: says (11:57 PM):
what's ur dream now? be someone normal?
Cheryl says (11:59 PM):
be a good mum good wife
-Nicholas: says (11:59 PM):
=D
u sounds to be a good woman now
Im damm suprise of it!
-Nicholas: says (12:00 AM):
it's a good thing though
=)
last time u was too ambitious
Cheryl says (12:01 AM):
really?
-Nicholas: says (12:01 AM):
but good also
lol
ya
but no matter ur previous dream or current dream
u was always looks great
has own thinking
-Nicholas: says (12:02 AM):
the way u insist ur thing is kindda enchanted
Cheryl says (12:02 AM):
not anymore i gues
-Nicholas: says (12:02 AM):
hmmm
dont give up so early
life is a long long journey
-Nicholas: says (12:03 AM):
maybe the previous 20++ years...u hasnt know what ur dream really look like?
or maybe even now...this is still not ur final achievement?
we experience as time goes by, and we are still finding....
-Nicholas: says (12:04 AM):
don't lose ur confident and insistant so fast
it's ur specialty
=D
it's ur signature that defines u

What is love?

If love is to be an action, it is so so far away...
If love is to be a voice, it is quite far too...
If love is to be a word, it will be nearer...
If love is just a click away, it is everywhere, I believe...

If love is love, why does it have different?
Do we love only when it is convenient?
When it is smooth sailing?
Or regardless what...?

I am finding love...
people may have a lot of courage to love,
but did not want to sacrifice,
I am just right opposite...
What is love?
Where is love?

People,
If tomorrow I die...
will the action of love still as far?
Will you give me a hug,
let me know you love me?
Why that difficult to get love?
Am I using threats to get love?
Or sacrifice my life to prove love?


When we know we are about to lose it,
or lost it,
only then we start to realized?
Give me your love...

Where?

Over the year, things keep changing. I think this is the most drastic changes happened in me throughout my life maybe. Plan changes, life changes, environment changes. I am kinda exhausted. I tell myself to accept the fact that I am already working. And I will be working for the next 10 years I am sure. Study life had ended. Accept this fact is exhausting enough for one.

The change of my future life-plan kind of change too many things in me. Many times I really doubt if I am sure all this is what I will want, after working and achieving quite a number in the past, am I ready to let go? and start all over again? When unsolved problems start arising one after another, sometimes I gave up and go back to the middle of the crossroad again. All and all, I feel I am so wasting time, first with starting all over again and second with the doubting and stopping there, thinking.

Until now I am not sure. Time is so precious. This makes me feel so frustrated and angry with myself.

Despite all the existing troubles I faced in work, life now is kinda quiet and boring. I like that. But its abit solo, cause eventually I start to ignore friends, yes I do, and start to avoid crowd.

Sigh. After all that I have built up!! I am so dilemma.

Conclusion : maybe my ultimate problem is I just cant made up my mind and just GO FOR IT without looking back.